Demonic Intake of Diamox (Completed)

27th Intake

Kabanata 27

Let go

I scanned my notes and reviewers at the top of my table. Pinatay ko ang lampshade na aking katabi bago inalis at itabi ang suot kong reading glass.

I don't know what happened for the past moths that had passed. It's like that I am living but barely breathing or the other way around....I am breathing but barely living.

Tomorrow is our finals exam, finally after a long run for this year, makakatapos na rin ako kahit may dalawang taon pang nakaabang. Atleast I stepped up even it's only a step.

3yrd year college was the year when I've finally learned how to arki. And it was the most difficult year next to thesis year for me. A lot of group works, and group presentations, every subjects may groupings kami.

And I find it hard to cope up in my new environment. I don't know how to approached someone without them feeling awkward about my presence. It's just so hard for an introvert person like me to tag along with couple of people around me.

I feel like the place where I am in was too crowded that I can't even breath properly.

Hindi ko alam kung papaano ko pakikisamahan si Kassie dahil minsan ay isa siya sa mga naging kagrupo ko. She never threatened me about something, we became civil to each other.

And I think that was okay. While on the other hand, Dylan and I never talked again just like how we used to. Nagkasya na lamang kami sa pagtango at pagngiti ng tipid kapag magkakasalubong ang mga mata namin.

It's hard. It was totally difficult for me to accept that our love story ended up that way. I know that he's doing his best just to avoid me and so as me.

The person whom I once treasured became just a fragment of my memory.At first it was hard to accept, but as days goes by I understand that letting go doesn't necessarily means that you can't be together again. It's just a matter of patience and waitings.

I sighed heavily when I've felt my phone vibrated on the table that I was leaning. Dahan dahan ko itong kinuha, I even changed my pin to a simple pattern since I now value my time.

I swallowed the lump in my throat upon reading the text message. It was just a simple message from someone and yet the feels made me want to explode in both joy and regret.

Dylan:
Goodluck on your exams tommorow. I know you can ace it. God bless and fighting! :')

Inilagay ko ang cellphone ko sa aking dibdib at dinama ang pagtibok nito. Masaganang nag alpasan ang mga luha sa aking mata. I read his message for the fifth time and a sad smile formed in my lips again.

I had no idea how he got my new phone number but I really appreciated his message.

Me:
Thank you, don't forget to take your meds, Sir. :'>

Who am I kidding? Even tho I already accepted our fate I can't just forget and move on that fast. Kulang na kulang ang ilang buwn para kalimutan siya.

And there, the night before our exam I cried my heart out....silently. Inside the four corner of my room where no one could see the weak me.

"Ba't ganoon 'no? Kung ano pa 'yung mahirap 'yun pa ang 10 pts!" Pyeona looked depressed.

I forced a smile and shrug, pinagmasdan ko ang mukha niya at ang kaniyang tiyan. She's three months pregnant right now and yet her baby bump isn't that noticeable because of the clothes that she's wearing.