He's my son (One Direction)

Excuses and Accusations

I walked into Starbucks and saw Zayn sitting down. He looked at me, got up and gave me a hug. We sat down and he just kept staring at me, the he smiled.

"Do I have something on my face?" I joked. My jeans were not very comfortable and this sweater was kinda itchy. This is definitely not going to be a fun talk.

"No I'm just happy to see you. You've been ignoring me for while. Look I'm sorry about how everything turned out. Am I forgiven?"

"Wow, it's been two years and I'm healing but no. You really hurt me. I'm really looking forward to being friends though. How's life been? How's Perrie doing?"

"I told you I'm sorry bout that. You know I never men't to hurt you so badly. I was just young and stupid. Anyways um, life is good I suppose. Harry never talks about you around me and I guess that's okay. Perrie is really well, she really is looking forward to meeting you." He said with a smile. He's changed. His hair was different and was more masculine than I remember. I kept seeing Nathaniel when I looked at him. I want to tell him, but I just can't right now.

"I talked to Harry earlier about talking to you. He wouldn't hear any of it. I don't know why he hates us talking so much." I knew why. Because of Nathaniel. He knew that is if I told Zayn he'd step up and I would be with Zayn and break up with him.

"I know, maybe it's because we used to be together. Exes reconnecting and stuff."

"But your with Perrie, he shouldn't be so bothered by it. We got into a fight about it earlier." I looked down at my drink Zayn had bought me. Vanilla Bean is so delicious!

"So he doesn't know your here with me?"

"Well he knows I'm here, just not with you. You remember Annabel right? Well I told him I was meeting here with her."

"Oh, if he finds out he'd go mad."

"I know, but I do miss my old best friend." I said lightly hitting his arm.

"Old? I'm not your best friend anymore." His accent showed when he said anymore. I loved his accent, it was different from the other boys.

"I guess you can be but Annabel doesn't like competition." We went on laughing and talked about how our day went.

I looked at my phone. 5 miss calls and 7 texts from Harry. I've been gone for about three and a half hours. I should really keep track of time more, seriously.

"I really must be going, I'll text you okay." I told Zayn and he got up to me a fairly awkward hug.

I was lost in thought on the way home. Three years is a large amount of time and people do change over time. I still haven't forgiven him for cheating on me but that past should be left in the past. I should stop thinking like a teenage girl and more like a grown women.

Yes, he deserves to know he has a son. Yes, he's changed. Yes, my thought process sucks. I need to put Danny's needs first, not mine. Jesus, I'm a bad parent.

I came home to see Harry in the kitchen. It doesn't surprise me that he's mad. I was out late and he worries because paps can be vicious. Fans can be too

"Where were you?"

"Drinking coffee."

"Ya I know, why didn't you text or call me back?" He said while putting his hands behind his neck to stretch.

"Didn't know I had to. My phone was on silent and I put it my purse. Sorry?" I chuckled. I'm not the best liar, but I get by. Laughing it off was way better than biting my nails. Way to not look suspicious Ally.