Thoughts, Emotions, Change

Why

Why do you care if I eat or not

Why do you care if I sleep on the floor or not

Why do you care

Why

Why

Why

I understand friends do this but this isn't a normal friend behavior

I lied earlier

I remember you trying to pick me up last night off the floor and convinced me to sleep on the futon next to you

I remember mumbling I felt sick and nauseous

But you were soft and gentle trying to coax me up to walk over on my own

And when I did eventually cave, and had fallen asleep,

hours later when the sun was starting to rise,

you had me wrapped in your arms like you used to do

Every little movement I made, you drew me closer

You cuddled me like we were still together,

hugged me like I was the one you wanted still,

comforted me and warmed me like we would on cold nights because of my body temperature being finicky with the chill

Friends don't do that

And I can't tell if you remember any of that or not,

but you're acting different

Sweeter, more caring than after we broke up

And I'm scared I'll let the emotions that stayed with me get in control again

I don't want to interpret things wrong, but I also don't... want you to stop being like this..

I'm so confused