Thoughts, Emotions, Change

The Distance Between

The ocean is deeper than I thought

At first glance it seems shallow

Sea greens and hazel browns blending softly with one another

The waves forcing seaweed to dance under it's song

Shells sinking slowly back to the earth below

But upon further inspection

As I sink lower and lower

The ocean is not what I thought it was made of

Navy blues and purple hues collide with the tides of aquamarine

Waves lose their strength but the heavy weight of one's thoughts settle on the chest

Heavy, heavy, never letting up once

Gravity doing its best to pull you down deeper, the seaweed no longer swaying to the rhythm

It grabs ahold of a limb, one after the other, until you can't swim up to the surface

And like a butterfly stuck in a web, the spider now can feast upon your flesh

I am at a loss of what to do

Do I try to keep swimming and stay afloat

Or let the creeping fears grasp tighter?

In the end is it worth it after all to have taken the risk when I could be safe back on land?

Standing on that creaking dock, watching the taunts and beauty from afar?

I don't regret the risks of jumping created

And if anything I desperately hold onto the feeling that beauty overcomes what the mind withholds

But when it comes to this distance between us, I feel cold

And when the tides of despair lighten up, I just crave your warmth more and more