Kisses of Fire (boyxboy)

Chapter 25 - Am I Making You Nervous?

When Cooper got home that day, he was the only one home, and he couldn't be happier. Logging into his computer, he realized it was still on the quiz, which made him scoff. Exiting out of it, he typed in pornhub and tried to look for a video.

Ever since what happened in the bathroom with River, he'd been on edge all day. It didn't help that when he had class with Riley, he found himself looking at her boobs as she sat in front of him. He was honestly a mess, and he was blaming everyone for it.

As he scrolled, he found nothing that interested him, so he typed in something he never thought he'd do. He typed gay in the search bar and hesitated before clicking search.

He quickly scrolled through, and a video that had the word twink made him choose it. It started, and it was some buff guy and a skinny looking teenager, naked.

Is this what that guy Carter was referring to when he called him a twink? What a jerk.

Cooper was getting bored with them making out and feeling each other, so he skipped to the sex. He would've started touching himself, but the sight of the twink getting completely railed made him watch in shock.

Is this what gay sex looked like?

Eventually getting over it, the aroused feeling came over him again, and this time he undid his pants and touched himself. He felt weird, but at the same time really needed to get off, so he spit in his hand and gripped his member, rubbing himself.

The two guys moans made him want more, and soon he was cumming in his hand that was starting to cramp up. Cooper sat there trying to catch his breath while the buff guy finally stopped pounding the twink. He thought it was over until the twink was on his knees with the other guy standing above him, jacking off and cumming on his face before shoving his dick in his mouth.

"Ew," Cooper said to himself as it finally ended. Before another video could start, Cooper exited out of the tab and closed the other pop-ups before closing his computer. He sat there with a blank expression thinking about the last 20 minutes.

A feeling of disgust took over him as it set in; he just got off to gay porn. He felt nothing but disgust and embarrassment while also feeling worried he would turn into one of them.

Wanting to wash away the feelings, he turned on the hot water and got in, letting it burn his skin. He started scrubbing as hard as he could, knowing it wouldn't stop the thoughts, but the mentality of it working made him keep going.

Being gay was something he knew he couldn't be. He didn't know how his mom would feel but knew it definitely wouldn't sit well with his dad. He also heard the way people around him talked about gay people. They would call them names and make fun of them. They never held anything back.

When he got out, his skin was practically red, but he ignored it as he went to put on fresh clothes. He went outside to shoot some hoops to get his mind off of it, but the thoughts wouldn't budge.

He was genuinely bothered by the idea of being gay, and he blamed River for it.

______

By the next morning, he had sort of pushed it to the back of his mind and tried to think of other things, like how it was Halloween or how it was freezing cold outside.

Before he left, his mom called out to him to take a jacket, saying it might rain later; he was hoping it wouldn't since he had to take the bus home, but also didn't care about anything at this point.

When school started, he instantly noticed that some of the teachers and students were dressed up. In some classes, students could dress up for extra credit, but he wasn't about to look stupid and embarrass himself for a couple of extra points.