𝘍𝘢𝘵𝘦 •|| 𝑇𝑃𝑁 𝑅𝑎𝑦𝑋𝑂𝐶: 02194 ✦ (Completed)

44 - OPEN UP.

44 - OPEN UP.

【 FAETHEAN 】

"Mica..."

"Goodbye! Conny!"

"Hao, don't forget to write letters!"

"Cedy...we'll miss you,"

"Mama! Help me!"

"We'll save you, Mama..."

"Come up now!"

"We decided to take you back,"

"I missed you so much...Rezi..."

"We're family! We're siblings!"

"You're special,"

I slowly open my eyes, as I feel the pain in my head once again. Although, it doesn't hurt as much now. I roamed my eyes only to see a raven-haired guy beside my bed, with a book on his hand. Wait, that's the photo album.

"You're awake, and crying...again," he said, closing the album. Did he stayed here from the moment I passed out? Right, I passed out once again. Wait, why did he went to my room again? I don't remember, or did I passed out before he could tell?

"Eli said that you should stay in bed for a while," he spoke, wiping my tears with his thumb. I stayed quiet as I remember the dreams I had. There we go again with these kind of dreams. Their voices...I forgot, and I can't see their faces clearly. Except Norman...

What were those? Are they really just a dream? It seems like a memory...

How come that every time I pass out, there's always these kind of dreams? Warm dreams...probably memories...

"Are you feeling alright now?" 

A lot of things are unfamiliar to me. But, those dreams always gives me a different emotion. Sometimes the dreams are fun and happy, sometimes...it's not, it can be scary, too, and then fun again...as if it's just a cycle of the things I wanted to experience. or maybe I had already experienced those. It could be memories but, even if so...I still don't remember a thing, and the dreams aren't clear.

"Faith?" I looked at Sir Ray who's looking at me with those worried eyes. This guy is nice.

"Oh-uhh...I'm alright now, my head's still aching though..." I replied as I force a smile.

"You..." I creased  forehead.

"You were calling their names in your sleep," he spoke.

"Their names?" I asked, and he nodded.

"..." I stared at my hands as I took a deep breath.

"Those people in my dreams are faceless, I can hear their voices but, I can't remember it after waking up. They smile gently to me, they call my name...but, I don't know anything about them. It feels warm every time I dream about them. It feels like I'm living my best life...it feels like I've been wanting to be with them..." I wasn't supposed to say that out loud but, my mouth did it anyways. It's always nice to tell people what's on your mind.

"Faith..."

"It feels good, I'm glad and happy. But...it's still just a dream..." I continued. 

And there we go with my tears again, flowing to my cheeks without permission. The audacity of these tears. But, I can't prevent these tears from falling. Because, tears are words the heart can't say, right?

"Even if I dream about them everyday and every night, they'll be gone once I wake up. The happiness, contentment, and satisfaction I'm feeling will be gone, and I'm back to this reality again where I don't remember anything," I hugged my knees as I let the tears fall. I don't know if it's fine for him to hear all of this but, I just can't help myself.