Breaking the rules ✓

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Day 6
My room door was opened suddenly and Luke walked in. I jumped and moved back on my bed.

"You know what happened yesterday was the height of it."

"It wasn't my fault!" I said.

"You told her!!" He yelled and I jumped at the loudness of his voice.

"Now listen to me carefully Mia. You're a worthless girl. Practically all your life you troubled our parents with your sick mental illness that you refused to tell anyone the cause of. You became a burden cause you were constantly hurting yourself. Do you know the cost of homeschooling? Do you? Definitely not. A slut is in every way better than you Mia. You're useless and and just tell me where did you get your ugly self from? Just thought of something, what if you were adopted? Worry on that. Cut yourself on that. Kill yourself on that in fact!" He said and stormed out of my room.

His words cut deep.

I got off my bed, locked my door and went into the bathroom. I picked my secret kit from where it was hidden and sat on the bathroom floor crying.

I cried uncontrollably as I got out a razor.

Yes, obey him. Cut yourself.

The voice is back.

I pulled up my PJ sleeve and looked down at my wrist with the tens of almost fading cuts from the past.

New ones are about to be made, ones that'll cut deeper than all others.

It may be...that I'm adopted actually....

No Mia, don't think just cut. Cut to suppress the pain you're feeling. Just cut Mia.

The voice in my head whispered. I held the razor with shaky hands.

"I'm sorry....I'm sorry. I'm sorry Tara, I'm sorry Harmony, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry Grace." I cried putting the razor to a new line beneath the last cut.

I cut deep.

I let out a noise of satisfaction as I did three more.

I looked down as blood flowed down my hand.

I then looked up and leaned my head against the wall.

Mia you've done the right thing. Don't feel guilty for doing the right thing.

I shut my eyes trying to block out that nasty voice.

That voice that I haven't heard in a while..

"Why're you always doing this to me?" I whispered to myself watching the blood increase.

I dropped the blood stained razor and watched as it stained the floor.

"I'm sorry" I said again. It was Luke, he caused it.

I was recovering then he did this...

I cried as I stared at the mess of blood I was in.

The cuts were red and the marks look pretty deep.

Just like I want it to be.

"Leave my head!!" I whisper yelled.

I heard a sound in my room and my eyes widened in shock.

"Mia." A male voice said knocking on the bathroom door.

Max.

How..? I locked my room door.

What's he doing here?

I sniffed looking down at my messy state. The bathroom door was actually unlocked but I guess he didn't know...