Breaking the rules ✓

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Four weeks later.

"37 missed calls in 20 hours....from Max Kings." I muttered to myself.

I was finally okay.

I mean they both really regret what they did and facing facts its all in the past.

They hurt me a lot and this whole thing has been with me since...since I was 15.

I've been battling with depression for 4 years and I was finally getting better when Max decided to tell me that he and my brother knew about everything.

All this is in the past though, yea it hurt but that shouldn't stop me from moving on..

I've been going back to harmony, my counsellor and she claims this time was easier than the last.

My parents don't even know about all this.

I've cut twice in this past four weeks (1 month) but I'll be fine.

Plus this few weeks without Max has been awful.

I miss him a lot..

According to Harvey I don't miss him as  much as he misses me.

He said Max has been a mess and if I wanna ever forgive I should go visit him.

This whole thing has been...messy.

Max calls me everyday but as the day goes by and I don't respond the number of times he calls reduces.

I feel he's giving up but Tara said he's been really busy.

According to her, they have a big game tomorrow and they've been practicing like hell the last few weeks.

My plan?

Well I'm going to the game tomorrow.

Max has no idea. I'm gonna talk to him then.

I spoke to Luke yesterday and things are awkward between us now cause he's trying to be a nice guy and I'm not used to that.

Right now I'm in my room and

Tara is sitting on the floor doing her assignments.

"Why don't you wanna use the desk?" I asked.

"Sheesh mind your business!" She groaned.

Yea she's been epically cranky.

Practice is hitting on all of them i guess.

Including Luke, he literally comes home and sleeps.

"Sorry." I said.

She looked up and I saw tears gathered in her eyes.

"What's wrong?!" I exclaimed slipping to the floor next to her.

She began to sob. "Mia, I - I like Luke...and Harvey, Harvey found out that I and Luke have been hanging lately and now he's mad at me. He's being so extreme about it and then the practice pressure, everything is frustrating me." She blurted out crying.

"Oh Tara...Why didn't you tell me all this?? I'm literally not busy at all." I muttered.

"I don't know what to do.." She said.

"We'll work on it bit by bit. From tomorrow intense practice will be over, even though I don't get why cheerleaders have to do this much practice. I mean its literally just dancing with pom poms right?" I said releasing her from the hug so I could look at her face.

"Were doing a complicated dance routine and most of the girls aren't getting it right but Kate refused to change it, she said if we don't learn to do it then we aren't gonna cheer tomorrow for the guys, and the guys really need all the encouragement they can get they've worked so hard for this." She sighed wiping her eyes with the back of her palm.

"Kate is a the real bitch." I said.

"Established." She rolled her eyes.

"I can talk to my brother to give you a little space to talk to Harvey and clear your mind." I said.

"Thanks a lot." She sniffed.

"Come on stop crying now or I'll actually not help at all." I said and she chuckled wiping her tears.

"Thanks" She said and I nodded.

"Its the least I could and it can't really be anything compared to all you've done for me." I said.

"True." She nodded and I rolled my eyes.

"Uhm... What's that?" She asked.

"What is what?" I asked.

"...Do you still cut?" She asked and I looked down at my open wrists.

I've been exposed many other times and she's just noticing?

"Not really." I answered. "When did you do this?" She asked.

"Beginning of last month." I replied honestly, there's no point in lying now.

"Why??" She shrieked.

"Luke." I answered. "Oh my Goodness!" She exclaimed taking my wrist.

"Wha- who- who helped?" She asked.

"Uhm..Max came and helped me somehow.. That was the day I wasn't picking your calls." I said.

"Oh! So you lied to me? Why didn't you tell me?" She asked.

"You would've done something to Luke and I didn't want that." I said.

"You're sick." She packed her books in her bag hurriedly and left slamming the room door shut.

She'll be fine.