Poems For Life

For I am an Angel

They never said it would be easy,

They never said it would be worth it,

So why tell me to hold on,

It hurts,

I might not have physical scars,

But I have mental and emotional ones,

Don't those count for something,

I wish I could speak my pain,

But my silence speaks louder than my words,

So I always was quiet,

The girl that never cried in public,

Always smiles,

Never frowns,

I was the happiest girl they said,

Yet they didn't know,

I hid in a dark room,

In a corner in the closet,

Crying,

Dying,

Trying to undestand of all this nonsense,

Why say its a blessing,

Its just a curse,

I am sorry that I have no physical scars to prove,

I am sorry you are careless,

I am sorry I can't fix your heart,

I might be an angel,

But there are somethings I can't do,

I tried to be strong,

To diminish the negativity of earthly beings,

I was just too young to be given the task,

I needed the comfort of clouds again,

I needed the darkness,

The numbness,

I didn't have the guts to make a mark,

So I jumped,

All of a sudden,

Darkness,

That beautiful darkness,

The comfortable black out,

Death held me like an infant,

Frail and hard,

Life didn't want to let me go,

But they've played that game before,

This is my second time,

I am sorry,

I knew who'd win this time,

Deaths arms comfort me,

The coldness surrounding me like a blanket,

No more noise,

No beat in my chest,

No thoughts to keep me awake,

Death is my friend,

Death is my savior,

He held me and lied me down,

Gently,

For I am an angel.