Illumi looks at them shocked, " now then, shall we start?~ " Hisoka spoke throwing four cards at Jinxz, Gon goes to attack Shiru head first, " oi! don't just go straight first to attack without a plan! " Killua yells running in after him. ' why? why? why? why would you still go so far for me, even after what I've done to you? ' illumi thought watching as all three fought for him. " Illumi?! " Kurapika spoke as he kneels beside him, as he looks at him.
" are you okay? " Leorio spoke, " yeah, I'm fine " he spoke looking at them, but soon returns his gaze towards the battle. ' i don't understand it, I've hurt you all, why not let me die? Why would you protect me? ' he thought. " why?...... " he spoke in a low tone, making the two confused. He saw as Hisoka threw punches, kicks, cards even received a bit of damage himself, he looks overseeing Gon and Killua fighting hard as if their lives depended on it.
" remember Illumi, an assassin is to have no bounds, they only hold you back " his mother spoke, " if you can't even defend yourself, having someone fight for you or fighting for them is useless. they'll only distract you. no matter what, you aren't to make friends, understand? " she spoke looking at him.
" yes mother " he spoke looking up at her, as he lied on the ground after another training session, he was only five at the time.
' But why is it now, I feel this? This feeling, it's so warm and welcoming, what is this? ' he thought looking down at his lap. " look if you just let us take Illumi, no one has to be hurt~ " Jinxz spoke, " as we'll ever hand him to you guys. Why do you even want him? " Killua spoke. " yes~, what's your relationship with my Illu?~ " Hisoka spoke.
" oh, he hasn't told you, as expected of him, let's just say he was our toy before yours~. He was always so much fun to play with, especially sexually~ " Shiru spoke licking his lips as he looks at him, ' what? does that mean?- " Kurapika was soon cut off. " of course he never cooperated with us, so we always had to use force~ " Jinxz spoke, " tell me Illumi since we last played with you, has any other man touched you in such ways?~ " Jinxz spoke chuckling.
All eyes were on him as he grips his pants a bit, biting his lips trying to block out those memories, those memories he desperately tries to forget. " you " a voice spoke, all look at Killua spoke, " my brother may not be the best, but it's no excuse to ever do that to him. I'll kill you " he spoke in an angry tone. " stop " Illumi spoke, he shakily gets up, " Illumi?... " Kurapika spoke.
" If I agree to go with you, do you promise not to hurt them? " he spoke, " of course, but you do know what we're going to do with you?~ " Shiru spoke. " yes, I'm willing to take that risk. besides it won't be the first time you've done that, you've done it countless times to me already " he spoke. " yes, do you promise to be a good boy?~ " Jinxz spoke, " yes, just don't hurt them, this has to do with them " Illumi spoke. " very well, we have a deal, come here~ " Shiru spoke smirking.
" Illumi?!, are you crazy?! " Leorio spoke, " no, I just don't want you guys to get hurt because of me, this isn't your problem, it's the Zoldyck's. Seeing as it'll take a while for father to hear of this, I'll end it fast and hand myself over. After all, I'm just a tool, so it doesn't matter if I die or not ' he spoke with such an empty look in his eyes. " that's not true! " Gon yells. " you're your own person, no matter what! You shouldn't speak like that about yourself " Gon spoke glaring at him. " Gon's right, Illumi your own person no matter what anyone says " Kurapika spoke.
" why? " he spoke, " why are you doing this?!, even after I hurt you all, why are you protecting, defending me?! " he spoke, " because no matter what, at the end of the day your human " Killua spoke. " Illumi you protected us all back when you got kidnapped, with Kazmo, and now. A heartless person wouldn't bother, we all might of thought you're heatless but you're not. cause if you were, would you have defended us so much? " Kurapika spoke.
" they have a point their Illu~, no matter you pulled through and protected us all, even when you're supposed to be a heartless assasin~ " Hisoka spoke. He looks at them shocked, he felt that warm feeling bubble up, " because of that, we're not letting you turn yourself over, well fight to protect you, like you did for us " Gon spoke.
' this feeling, is this happiness? ' he thought, " hello, Illumi get over here " Jinxz spoke, " no " he spoke confusing them, " they're right I'm my own person, so I'll make my own choices. so " he spoke looking up at them determined, " I'm going to stand and fight for what's right, I'll kill you both so you can't hurt anybody else! " he yells.
" just as I thought, you were listing, such a shame~ " Jinxz spoke sighting, " well then, bring it on! " Shiru yells.
Just like an unbreakable spell
Or some kind of curse
I'm still holding on to some heavy baggage
Hey, what kind of tomorrow
Am I supposed to look for
In this town?
Ah!
Fuyu no Hanashi~ Yano Shougo
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11/08/2020
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Lies make you weak and that's why you can't sleep
FanfictionIllumi has known hisoka for the longest, for the longest he's started to feel strange about him and didn't know why. He soon figured out why, how will illumi react when he discovers he has Hanahaki? But most importantly how will he hide this from hi...
