comes in waves ↠ kim sunwoo

chapter thirty two

Third Person POV

A harsh chap at the door woke Heiji from her light slumber. "Heiji, are you in there?"

Haknyeons voice startled the girl, she looked up to see her bedroom light was on but it was still fairly dark outside. It wasn't until she heard the boy behind her groan that she was fully aware of her surroundings.

"Y-yes," Heiji stutters, unsure of what to do. Her eyes wandered to the floor, where she saw clothes and underwear, and the colour drained from her face. "Two seconds, Hak."

"Sure," the boy says lazily, walking into the hallway to wait for her to come outside. She had been gone for a couple of hours now, yet everyone was still at her house, still awake and very much drunk.

She tries her best not to disturb the boy, lifting his arm up lightly before making sure he was fully asleep still as she tried to get herself dressed. She still felt slightly self conscious, although he had seen practically everything just hours ago. The earlier events flash back into Heiji's mind as she feels a shooting pain between her legs, but that was expected after what they had done.

"Hey," Heiji says lightly, closing the door behind her to leave a sleeping Hyunjae in her bed. "What's wrong?"

"You've been away for hours," Haknyeon looks at her worried. "Did you fall asleep?"

Heiji stays silent, she felt like she couldn't lie to him, as always. The boy had recently sobered up, as did most people in the house. He noticed the girl looking shamefully at him, and he could have sworn she was about to cry.

"Hey," he reaches down, holding her arms. "What's wrong?"

Without hesitation, Heiji takes his hand and leads him into her mothers bedroom, and by this point - he knew something was wrong. She takes a deep, shaky breath, before holding a hand to her head.

"I have a headache," she says quietly, scrunching up her face before blinking her eyes a few times to see if the pain would ease. It didn't, but that wasn't what they were here for. "Hak?"

"Mhm?" He stares contently at the girl, her eyes darted everywhere else around the room before looking at him.

"I lost my virginity," she blurts, the boys eyes widening. "With Hyunjae."

"Okay..." He says calmly, watching as the girl began to freak out after she said those words. He noticed she began to shake a little, as though she was on the verge of a break down. "Hey, come on now."

He removes her hands which had jolted upwards to cover her face, her head hanging in shame. She felt dirty, no matter how much she wanted it at the time, she didn't feel like it was right. She was drunk and so was he, how could they have made such a decision?

"Stop it, Heiji," Haknyeon says softly. "Why are you so upset? Talk to me."

"I don't love him," the girl looks at her hands. "I was supposed to save that for someone I loved."

"It doesn't always work out that way," Haknyeon tries his best to ease the girls nerves. "That's what you're told, you should save yourself for someone you love, but that just defies the laws of attraction. It happens, Heiji. You can have sex with multiple people, but make love to only one."

Heiji looks at the boy, stifling a laugh. "Ew, I don't like when you talk like this."

"Shut up," Haknyeon laughs, putting his arm over the girl. "I'm trying to make you feel better. It isn't the end of the world, Heiji. I know it's important but try look at the positives - you actually had sex, with someone you trust too. You're lucky it was him."