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you can't

Everyone's always saying you can...but what if you can't???? DEEP 2AM THOUGHTS... Haha I need a better title for this. Hope ya like it :) I'm open to suggestions! In fact, please suggest so that I know people are actually reading this, though nobody does lmao... Thanks to leolantsov for reading the last one <3

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you can't

pray away

pain

and you can't

blame

pain

on somebody

but still

you can't

blame yourself

because

it is not your fault

for existing

it is not your fault

for trying to

get through

each day

maybe we should

hand you

a medal

so you have

proof

of your worth

and do not

doubt it

but i don't think

that would help

and people

speak

of these things

as if they

are humorous

as if

hating

yourself

every fiber of

your being

every inch of

your body

to the core

of your very soul

is something

that you

choose

why?

explain to me

why

you would choose

that pain

why you would pick

an all consuming

fiery burn

of rage

directed

within

because you blame

yourself

for being too

weak

to be

worthy

of love

and there is a

very

simple

answer:

you

do

not