a patchwork quilt of maybes and almosts ✓

anonymity

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you don't

know me

how i'd

love

to be anonymous

just for a day

to roam the

streets

catch a

flight

to new york

far away from

where i am now

to walk through

the great city

sparkling

with lights

pay for a

hotdog

at a stand

search for

someone

who is just like

you

there are too

many

whose long

sleeves

hide scars

and whose

hours

are spent in

hospital beds

and therapists'

offices

loving yourself

doesn't come

easily

but still you

try

even if it might

never happen

and you've

accepted that

even if you don't

want it to

happen

because that

will mean you've

given up

on whatever

improvement

could happen

even if you're

too afraid

to change

what you

can't bear

as the sun

drops

past the

horizon

and the clouds

come out

and catch

the orange

red

rays

did you know

that sunsets

are beautiful

because our

world is

dying

and our

atmosphere

is polluted

with toxins

perhaps

in the past

when the

dinosaurs

went out

to watch the

sun set

they saw

a yellow

glow

briefly

disappear

and then the

night sky

but now

in new york

you cannot

see the

night sky

the way

it was before

beauty

is pain

but is pain

worth beauty

it is

to some

and not

to others

how far will

you go

to be able to

look in the

mirror

and smile

at what you

see

how far will

you go

to stop

hurting

yourself

and destroying

yourself

because

you believe

that it will

help the pain

it won't

it won't

so stop

as the sun

rises

in the morning

and the flight

takes you

back home

and smile

at the

people

who love you

for you

even if you

don't

because you

owe it

to them

to keep

living

fighting

hoping

and because

when you're

gone

you won't

be able to

explain

that it wasn't

their fault