In four days, I am four months clean from self harm. You cannot imagine how hard this has been for me unless you have been through it yourself. This is an amazing achievement and despite the fact that I still suffer from unimaginable urges to do it, I haven't. I am so proud of myself.
I am now fully recovered from my anorexia and have put on weight. I am ä healthy weight, maybe a little bit chubby, but I am happy again.
I have finally realised what it is like to be happy.
I haven't felt this way in a long time.
This doesn't mean my depression is gone.
This doesn't mean my anxiety is gone.
This doesn't mean I feel okay all the time.
Of course I still suffer from all the horrible things I have been faced with.
But I have strategies. I have friends. I have a supportive, loving family, who are still horrible at times but getting there.
I am learning to feel okay again.
I am learning how to become a better person.
I have grown as a person. I am strong, I am learning to love myself despite my imperfections.
For once,
Things are Getting Better.
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In Order to Stay Alive, I Think I Have to Kill My Mind
Non-FictionTRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ This is your trigger warning. Please do not read any further if you are easily triggered. I began writing this book in 2018 when I was at one of the worst times in my life. I am still writing it in 2020, and am hoping to write i...
