FORBIDDEN FEELINGS part 2

Chapter 17- The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year

I wake up to Hermione tapping me. "Morning Jessa, I've just finished packing. I'm now going to the common room if you need me" she says.

I nod, still half asleep. As she leaves the room, Dean strolls in "So are you going to tell me what happened last night then, missy?" he crosses his arms, smiling.

I laugh and sit up in my bed "Yeah. I took him into his room, and he was being really cocky, so I started slapping him and having a go at him."

"Did you kiss him?"

"Yeah. And his shirt came off."

"Jessa! You only did this to snog his face off, didn't you?"

I laugh "Partly."

He laughs and opens my suitcase, helping me pack "Just be careful. He seems toxic from what I've seen."

"I know" I reply, helping Dean pack my stuff "But he's a drug, and I'm addicted. I will be careful, but I can't help my feelings towards him. Please don't tell anyone about this, Dean. I'm trusting you."

"I promise I won't. Your secrets safe with me."

Dean pats my back and leaves me to get ready.

I get into the common room and everyone's giving each other presents for Christmas.

"I don't want to go home this year" I say.

"Agreed. I hope the two weeks go fast" Ron adds.

"What's everyone up to in the holidays?" Neville asks.

Everyone says what they're doing and then we get taken down to the train.

I see Cedric and he waves at me with a sad look on his face. I wave back, trying to hold back my tears. I then see Malfoy getting on the train without even glancing at me. Wow. What have I done? I've lost the two boys I have feelings for.

I sit down in the carriage with Dean, Neville and Seamus. I look out the window and a tear runs down my face. "Are you alright?" Neville questions me.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. It's just... I've lost Cedric now" I reply.

Seamus, who is sitting next to me, gives me a hug. I honestly couldn't ask for better friends.

When I arrive at the train station, my mom is stood with open arms. I run and give her a long hug. When we get in the car, I tell her all about Cedric, but I tell her that he broke up with me for another girl. I can't let her know about Malfoy.

For the rest of Christmas break, all I can think about is the kiss between me and Malfoy. It was so magical, and it meant so much more than when I kissed Cedric.

I can't wait to go back and kiss Malfoy again.

Ihaven't seen any of my Muggle "friends". I've just been sitting in the flat,writing to my friends at Hogwarts. They say Christmas is the most wonderfultime of the year, but I was having a shit time.