FORBIDDEN FEELINGS part 2

Chapter 34- I'm Fed Up

It's Sunday 21st May, and Dean and I have gone out for lunch at a nice café in Hogsmeade. I tell him about the argument between Malfoy and I and I tell him that he slapped me. Dean is very annoyed with him and tells me I need to try and move on and I just nod my head. I want to move on from him, but I can't. As much as I'd love to, it's impossible. I'll always go back to him, he's addictive. I hate him at the moment though. There was no need to slap me. Okay yeah, I was asking for it. But a slap? That's too far. We arrive back in Hogwarts and I say goodbye to Dean and I head for the bathroom. As I'm on the way, I feel a tight grip onto my arm, and it drags me against a wall. Surprise, surprise it's Malfoy.

"Get off me Malfoy! You have no right to touch me!" I shout, pushing him off me but he just pushes me harder against the wall.

"You already moved on to Thomas I see?" Malfoy jealously assumes.

"Oh, just fuck off! Stop getting in my business and stop getting so jealous when I spend time with one guy other than you!"

"It's just funny how we have one argument and then the next day you're already fucking the closest guy to you."

"I'm not fucking him Malfoy!"

"I see that you have a type, Carter. Boys with no parents. I understand why you haven't started fucking me yet" he snorts at his stupid joke.

I shake my head and give him a massive death stare "Do you have decency or any sympathy for anyone?"

"Nope" he says with a blank expression.

"This is why we'll never be a thing Malfoy! You're just so horrible and you don't care about anyone but yourself and I don't want to date a person like that." As I'm shouting this, his face drops. I proceed, "So, just leave me the fuck alone because I've given you more than enough chances to prove that you're not just a fucking dickhead, but I've finally come to the conclusion that you are one and you'll never find happiness because I can assure you that no other girl will ever put up with you the way I did. I'm fed up with pretending that I can see good in you because I can't, and I probably never will."

Malfoy releases the pressure from me, and he steps back "If that's the way you feel then I'll leave you to it" he looks close to tears as he walks away from me.

Shit. I may have gone a bit too far, but I'm just fed up now. He can't treat me like I'm some sort of dog on a lead or something. I lied a bit there. I sometimes see good in him, but he can just be such a knob and I hate it.