FORBIDDEN FEELINGS part 2

Chapter 30- Finally Happy

It's Saturday 22nd April. It's been a while since I've spoken to Malfoy and I really miss being around him. The time is 9:50pm and I have brushed my teeth in the bathroom, and I have ten minutes to spare before I have to be in bed, so I decide to take a stroll around the school. I'm wearing a tank top, grey joggers and a dressing gown. I walk around and it's fairly quiet and my eye catches onto Malfoys blonde locks heading up the Astronomy Tower. He's wearing a black jumper and grey joggers. I can't help but follow him. I reach the top and he is looking through a telescope but it's pointing down.

"What are you doing up here?" I ask making him jump "You're not allowed up here unless you're in a lesson or have permission."

"You're not my mother, so don't tell me what to do. Leave me alone" he orders but I ignore him.

"Why is the telescope pointing down? It's meant to be pointing up."

"Can you just go? No one wants you here."

"Apart from you" I say heading for the telescope to see what he is looking at.

He pushes me away "Are you even listening to me? I told you to leave, why are you being so annoying?"

"Why do you want me gone so bad? Are we just going to ignore the feelings that we have for each other forever? Because I don't think I can pretend anymore, it's getting boring."

He exhales and thinks about what I just said. I look though the telescope and I can see Professor Lengel and Mohoseph Malfoy making out on a hill near the school. Ew.

"Er what the fuck? Lengel and Mo? That's disgusting." I say.

He laughs slightly and stares at the ground "Right."

"Why were you staring at them? Are you jealous that he's dating her?" I ask.

He looks at me and sighs "Well not jealous about that. Just jealous... oh it doesn't matter." He walks over to the edge of the Tower and holds onto the bar. I follow him and look at his face, which is staring into the night sky.

"It does matter Malfoy. I want to hear it."

"No. It sounds silly" he produces a nervous laughter that I have never heard.

I smile and put my hand on his "I'll tell you something silly, and then you can tell me what you think is silly, okay?"

He nods.

"Well, I think that it's silly that we keep arguing. I mean I don't know about you, but I hate it."

He nods once again "Yeah it is a bit silly, but we have our reasons. We can't just hold stuff in otherwise we'll make the same mistakes and never learn from them."

That was quite smart coming from Malfoy. "So, tell me. Why are you jealous?"

"He's happy."

I look at him with confusion "That's the reason?"

"Ugh. I knew it was silly" he says and goes to leave but I grab his arm before he moves further.

"I don't think it's silly. It's true. I'm jealous they're happy too."

He turns to face me, his body towering me. "You're only saying that because I caught you out on not agreeing with me."

"No, I'm being serious. I envy anyone who is happy with their significant other, since I'm never fully happy with anyone. Although I want to be with someone, but it's not that easy. As you know." I say, getting closer to him and feeling warmer.

"Yeah I understand. It's hard to be... happy with the one you want to be with, because something always goes wrong. Even when her and I try too, something always does. But because I see something with her, I have to tell her if I think it's a problem, as I wouldn't want it to happen in future and not only that, but it would stop us from being happy if I just let it slide. Also, I sort of... not really, but kind of... care about her and if she does something I don't like then I'm not just going to let her get away with it and then her do it again when I've fallen, and then I'll lose her. It would be horrible. Do you get where I'm coming from?" he opens up to me and steps closer to me.

We stare deeply into each other's eyes. They're glistening in the starlit sky.

"I one hundred percent get you and I also agree. We need to communicate now before we get into anything that could last long term. Also, that girl sounds pretty cool to me" I joke.

He smiles "Oh... she is." His hand slips onto my jawline, pulling our heads closer and our soft lips connect with each other, sending a sensation to run through my body. I've been craving this for so long and I try to hold onto it for as long as I can. We release for a second to take a breath and go in for a longer one. My tongue slides in and starts rubbing against his. His cold hand slips through my dressing gown and it rests on my warm back. I hold the back of hair and I start playing with it and my other hand is laying on his shoulder. This kiss it amazing and so worth the wait. He stops kissing me and we start gazing into each other's eyes. He lets go off me and he seems flustered. He looks at his watch "Shit! It's ten past ten. We were meant to be in bed ten minutes ago."

"Fuck. I guess we should head back then" I suggest.

He walks away, quickly. Leaving me on my own, but happy. I'm finally happy with him. Thank God.