ONE SHOTS COMPILATION

PANANDALIANG SAYA

It's Saturday night and I'm still up. I've been sleeping late night lately.

*buzz*buzz*buzz*

I looked at my phone and see who's calling.

"Kris." I murmured.

I answered it and asked why.

"Can we meet? I can't sleep. Let's stroll." He said. I looked at the time and it's past 12 midnight. I agreed. He said he'll wait me at the lobby so I changed my clothes for me to be comfortable.

I wore a hoodie and black fitted jogging pants. It's cold here in NYC. Christmas season. After putting light make up, I picked up my phone and wallet before going down.

I saw him sitting at the couch browsing his phone. As he looked up, he immediately saw me and smiled.

"Let's go?" I nod and wrap my arm around his.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"Let's just walk around the city. Let's enjoy the magnificent view of New York City. It's been weeks the last time I walked around." He said. I nod.

We went to Starbucks first to buy some drinks. Then went to Walmart to buy some chips and chocolate.

As we started strolling we talked about lot of stuff.

"When was the last time you kissed a total stranger?" I asked.

"Last month." He answered.

"When was the last time you were happy?" He asked.

I stopped and stare at him.

"When I was 8 years old." I said and looked down.

The memories started to flash again after 9 years.

"Dad where are we going?" An 8 years old me asked.

"We'll go anywhere you want." He said sweetly.

"Are we going to invite moma?" He shaked his head.

"Hmm. Okay!" I nod and hold my dad's hand.

"Daddy can we go to the water park? Then let's go enchanted kingdom? Then at the zoo. Then..."

"Easy there sweetheart. We will go wherever you want." Dad stopped me from talking.

I nod.

We continued walking til' we reach the car. Dad immediately started the engine as he entered after me and drove.

He was right, we went to all the places I said. We had fun. I was the happiest daughter that time. I kept smiling ear to ear not until we went home.

We saw moma naked in the bed with someone. They're peacefully sleeping. At my age I already knew what they have done. I cried after seeing them and hugged my dad. I never thought moma would cheat. She was the sweetest moma ever.

"Clark? Brex?" Mom said in shock. Her eyes is widen.

The man woke up and immediately took his stuff before going out after he saw us. Dad just stared at him and to moma. Without any words dad and I went to my room. He packed my stuff and belongings. Moma followed after she dressed up.

"What are you doing Clark? Where are you going?" Moma asked.

"We will leave." Dad said simply.

"No! Why? I'm sorry for what you saw. Clark you knew my condition. Clark please." Moma begged. Her tears started to flow.

"Condition?" I innocently asked.

"Not now Brex. Can you wait outside for a moment? Dad and Moma will talked for a bit. Please honey?" Confusingly I nod.

As I went out I heard their shoutings. The door wasn't fully closed that's why I can hear them.

"Bea you said you were healed. You promised you'll control yourself or even stop it if it attacks." Dad said in agony.

"I did control it Clark, believe me. I swear to God I did fucking tried to control it. But this, this disease of mine is controlling me. This has over taken my consciousness. Clark please." Moma begged.

"The last three years was fine Bea. You're nymphomaniac didn't attack. Why now? I thought you were fully healed. We shouldn't have left." Dad said.

"As am I. We even went to the doctor right? Clark please. Don't leave me." Moma

"I'm sorry Bea. I may have let pass it before but not now. Especially that Brex also saw it. Maybe come to us when you are really healed." Dad said and went out of my room then carried me.

I just looked at my moma innocently.

"That was the last time. Dad became busy and almost forgotten about me until I became 18. He said sorry and prepared a debut party for me. I let him pass because he was the only one who was there for me. But months later we found out that Moma's already dead. She died due to AIDS. Dad grief for a year until he committed suicide. He might have left all the money to me but I wouldn't forgive him for leaving me." I didn't realize I was already crying.

Kris hugged me.

"Did you know? I even questioned myself. Bakit pa ako sumaya kung ganto naman kasakit ang kapalit? Why did I ever done to make me suffer from this? I felt useless. I felt like it was my fault for not doing the best thing I can." He rubbed his hand to my back and keep on hugging me tightly.

"Ginusto ko lang sumaya Kris. Bata pa ako noong panahong yon. Pero bakit ganito ang naging kapalit? Why were Moma and Dad died in exchange for the happiness I felt? I was just a kid back then. Just a kid..." before I could finish my words I lost my consciousness.

As Brex fell asleep, I hugged her tightly before sending her to her hotel room. I looked at her once before flying up.

I'm sorry my sweetheart if I left you alone but that was written already. It's my destiny. I hope you forgive Daddy soon.