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Chapter 15

YOUR P.O.V

The welcoming party of sorts was finally over and I can now sleep without any disturbance. That is until Lily came dashing and grabbed my arm, pulling me somewhere.

"What the- Lily!?"

"Yes now no time to talk HEHEHEHEHHE."

I just followed her lead, running through the palace like madwomen. Being confused, I can only think why was she so excited to bring me to wherever we are going to. I sighed and continued running until we reached Rurumu's room. I was about to ask her somethinhe put her hand over my mouth before I could. I shot her a glare as she knocked on Rurumu's door. Why is she like a giggly little child?

Rurumu opened the door and smiled at me and Lily. I returned it with a grin and shook of Lily's grip on me. Rurumu gestured us to enter the room and sit down to have some tea and just chat.

"So what brings you two here, (Y/n), Lily?" -Rurumu

"Rurumu-san, we're just here to talk about (Y/n)!" -Lily

"Wait, hold up. You didn't tell me that you wanna talk about me." -(Y/n)

I goggled at her in disbelief. I swear if she really just wanna talk about me, there was totally no need to meet Rurumu. Sighing, I sipped my tea and proceeded to ask a question.

"So, Lily, what do you wanna say about me?"

"Well...I was gonna say we should really set you up on a date with Ja'far."

And with that, my face flushed an unimaginable shade of red. I have no idea what my love life has to do with them. I was embarrassed and I hated that. Slapping Lily's arm as hard as I could, I glared at her and immediately looked away.

"Lily, you have no need to help  me get together with Ja'far. I'll confess to him once I'm ready, didn't I tell you that?"

"Now, now, don't fight. Lily, (Y/n) can do whatever she wants whenever she wants."

Lily nodded and just giggled trying to hold back her laugh. I sighed and let my dear friend do what she wants and finished my tea. I've never really had anyone tease me about my love life, hell I don't even have a love life. I only have this huge crush on Ja'far which gets more and more obvious as seconds pass. But what I have to focus on right now is my studies, so that I can finally write and ease off Ja'far's burden from the stack of paperwork Sinbad didn't do.

"Rurumu, Lily, I'll be taking my leave now. I'll see you tomorrow for lessons."

"Alrighty~ Good night our sweet sweet (Y/n)~"

I smacked Lily's arm with a small smirk plastered on my face. Opening the door, I strolled along the corridors of the palace, taking in fresh air before walking back to my room. I can only imagine when I will confess to Ja'far and hope he accepts it since I can't guarantee he will. I looked back on the past experiences I had with him, including the ones from when we were younger. 

When we first met at the Sham Lash headquarters, being clueless little kids, playing around even though our situation was one that is extremely dangerous. Goofing off, playing with sharp tools, choosing each other's outfits despite it usually only being dirty rags. The serious moments we had when we were summoned by our boss, the missions that we accomplished together. 

When we split up after the mission Ja'far was entrusted with, the mission to kill Sinbad, the first person to conquer a dungeon. I was told of his betrayal against our 'community of assassins', joining forces with Sinbad. But I still trusted Ja'far, he was the one that usually led the way when we were lost on our previous missions together.

When I finally knew how miserable the life of an assassin is. Killing our parents as soon as we reach the age of six. Having to kill without knowing the reason at all, for the sake of our survival. I rejected every mission I was given to kill Sinbad, as every single one of those missions, they wanted me to kill Ja'far as well. They wanted me to complete the mission just because they want me to see Ja'far die before my eyes.

When I finally accepted the mission they gave me to kill Ja'far. I planned out my escape beforehand, only with hope that it will work. Never have I imagined that my plan will work and that I would finally be free of this hellhole full of death and misery.

Then, I looked back to the most recent events I experienced. How I was much more happy in these events. I became full of life, not the miserable, downhearted person I used to be. I can't change my past, so I will change my future. I need to strive to be a better person everyday, even though life is tough and many challenges await me in the future.

Taking out a book, I started to write what my goals are. I'm still unable to write properly, but it doesn't hurt to try. They always say, practice makes perfect. I wrote them down in point form, trying to stabilise my hand as much as I could to make my handwriting eligible. If I wanted to help Ja'far with his work, I need to have a neat handwriting. I wrote what big events I plan to do in the future, taking my time to think about what I really intend to do.

(Y/n)s noTe of goAls

- ConFesS to JafaR
- Have bettEr hanDWritinG
- HappiEr liFestylE
- EliMinaTe tHe ShaM LaSh bOss/leAdeR

~END~

[Okay I really tried to make it look like handwriting here be proud]

I sighed, looking at my horrible handwriting, knowing that I'll have to practice to make it better. I mean at least I can read it. Looking out the window, I realised that the sky was bright, the moon shining at lighting up most of the dark streets. I smiled, remembering how I 'met' Ja'far again in this similar situation. I stood up from my seat and walked to my bed, plopping down on it. I closed my eyes and soon drifted into a deep slumber...

HEY HEY HEY

Not me tryna update consistently after that very very long hiatus. I mean I have free time so why not ya know? Anyway, thanks for reading this chapter and byebyeeeee <3

{UPDATE: a/n shorter due to deleted stuff}

[Also probably gonna put one of my quotev oneshot books here in Wattpad. It's an angst oneshot book btw~]{UPDATE: this book is in my quotev too, I already said it on a previous a/n but that part of the a/n has been deleted lol}