cause you were all yellow | a.i.

twenty one.

slow dancing in a burning room john mayer
"my dear, were slow dancing in a burning room."

we stayed just dancing in the parking lot for a couple more songs.

they were just random ones played on the radio but neither of us wanted to let go.

we finally felt alive and we didnt want to leave.

by the end of yet another song, i was resting my head against ashtons chest as the rain pelted us from above.

i looked up to him, reminiscing on what had happened just moments earlier.

his smile was as big as mine.

id had my first kiss.

and id fallen in love.

with ashton irwin.

the other half of my lost soul.

but i was too scared to tell him.

"you wanna go home, yellow?" he whispered to me.

"i dont want to leave this moment," i told him truthfully.

"i dont think either of us are every going to forget it," he said kissing the top of my head as i leaned farther into him.

we continued to slow dance in the parking lot.

the whole world shut off, it was just us.

anything that was happening around us wasnt anymore, it was just us together and that was it.

i got so lost in the moment that i didnt even realize ashton was singing to me.

the radio had began playing a song i didnt recognize, but ashton knew it by heart as he sung it to me.

i stayed with my head resting on his chest, my arms wrapped around him. he rested his chin on top of my head as he swayed us back and forth.

the rain didnt even bother me anymore.

i just didnt want this moment to end.

"were going down, and you know that were doomed. my dear, were slow dancing in a burning room," i could hear him singing above me.

im not sure i had ever listened to this song before. the instruments and the music theory of it made it sound older, like the type you have on a record.

but regardless, it was beautiful.

and the way ashton sung it to me made it so much more beautiful.

when the next chorus rolled around, i sang with him.

"my dear, were slow dancing in a burning room."

i could hear his laugh as he tried to mask it above me.

as the song came to an end, ashton felt me shiver against him.

"you cold, yellow?" he asked as he pulled back to look at me.

i nodded my head to him as the feeling in my body returned.

"i better get you home then," he said, still not moving. it was obvious he didnt want to break up our moment either.

he finally just started slowly moving backwards towards my car door, still swaying to what ever song came on next.

he finally pulled us apart as he reached to open my door. he gave me his hand to help me into the car and closed the door behind me when i was inside.

i watched him run around the car in the rain, his hair soaked on the top of his head.

he climbed into his side and looked over at me. we both started laughing for no reason. i was laughing at how cute he looked completely soaked but i think he was just laughing cause i was.

it was something we did to each other. our smiles and laughs were contagious to the other.

there didnt even have to be something funny for us to break out in laughter. as soon as one did, the other followed.

"what are you laughing at?" he asked through his laughs.

i could barely breathe enough to tell him, "nothing."

"youre cute, did you know that?" he said starting the car still laughing along with me.

our drive home was how it always went. we sang along to the radio, just living in one anothers presence.

but once we reached my house, my happiness plummeted.

i had to go back to my bubble yet again.

"i dont want to go back," i told him as i looked towards my house.

"ill be back soon," he told me, waiting for me to turn around to look at him.

"i know," i whispered to myself. "i just dont want to leave you."

"but im always with you," he said as i turned around to look at him. "if you need me, i will be there. you know that."

"i know," i said again. "i just dont feel alive unless im with you."

"and ill be back to let you live soon," ashton told me. "and im a phone call away if you get a craving."

"i know, yellow," i told him.

he was right and i knew it. i couldnt spend every waking minute with him, no matter how much i wanted too.

but i knew he was only a phone call away if i needed him. if i needed him, hed be there.

and that was one of the many reason i loved him.

but it was also one of the many reasons i was too scared to tell him. because i didnt want to lose him.

we sat in silence few seconds as our smiles grew. not long after ashton got out of his side and over to mine, opening my door and helping me out.

"ill be back soon, yellow," ashton said as he leaned back against his car.

i stood at the end of my sidewalk, trying to stall having to go back inside.

ash could tell i was stalling too. he pushed up off his car and walked up to me, holding his arms out.

i walked in towards him, wrapping my arms around him. i leaned my head against him, breathing in apples and mint.

"good night, yellow," ashton whispered above me.

"good night," i whispered back, holding him as close as i could.