Just as I Begin to Fade

Fifty. Regret and Fear

"Stevie?" Karen repeated over the phone.

"Uh, Karen, I'm in the hospital and I need you to come and get them to release me."

"Which hospital?"

"Here, talk to Lindsey," she handed over the phone and then plastered her hand to her head.

Not only did she not know where she was, but she couldn't comprehend being pregnant.

Lindsey took the phone, "Hello?"

Pregnant... How could I be pregnant? Well, I know how I could be pregnant. Oh, my God... she thought to herself. The father has to be Lindsey, right? I haven't slept with anybody but him for about... she paused, trying to think, but her weeks were so mushed together that she had no idea. How far along even am I?

Lindsey then hung up the phone and placed his hand over her leg. "She said she'll be over soon."

"I'm sorry, there has to be a mistake. Are you sure, I'm pregnant?" she asked him, grasping his hand tightly not even caring about Karen anymore.

"The doctor was positive, you're about a month along," he said, kind of stifling his laugh.

"And we started... dating, hanging out together about a month ago, right?" she asked very seriously.

"Yes," he nodded. "Maybe even a little longer than that."

"What a relief," she sighed. "That means this baby is yours," she claimed. "I know this is terrible, but you knew my lifestyle and I'm sorry I would have to question it, but I'm with you now. I wouldn't want to burden you with a child that wasn't yours."

"Either way, Stevie... I would be here to help you take care of it."

"Really?"

He nodded. "I take care of Gwen, don't I?"

She smiled gently. "You're such a sweet, loving soul..." she brought her hand up to the side of his face. "I really do love you, I hope you know that. I'm just kind of wild and I have wild things like that to think about."

"Oh, I know, and I love you too," he smirked and leaned forward to kiss her.

"How long have I been here?" she swiped his cheek, still concerned about her stay.

"Since early this morning," he explained. "You've been out since they brought you here. You only responded to Gwen."

She nodded and then soon gasped.

"What?"

"She's gonna kill me," she claimed. "If she finds out that we're having a baby, we're dead."

"Stevie, you can relax. I'm pretty sure she's over the fact that we're a couple now. I told you, she's listening to my rules, she and I spoke the day before yesterday about everything."

She sighed, but nodded.

"Honestly, a baby might level her out. I'm not going anywhere and you're happy. All she wants is for you to be happy."

As he spoke, he was thinking about the fact that Andre obviously raped the blonde and how that was the last thing she would ever want to happen to her daughter, but once again, he couldn't say anything. He promised Gwen and he wasn't sure it was such a great idea considering the last secret he kept got him in a lot of trouble. He didn't want to be in trouble with Stevie.

She nodded again. "I wanna go home," she softly said, slightly jittery.

"We'll see, honey... You overdosed and the doctor said you're in pretty good health considering that you're pregnant. But they need to run some tests and see that the baby is okay. They already did an ultrasound."