Fix me (sequel to broken promises)

Bish wha

(⚠️ this whole chapter has a tw ok so read at your own risk this chapter contains suicidal thoughts self harm rape sensitive topics so if you don't like that stuff you can skip this chapter but some main points will be missing⚠️)

Harmony's pov afternoon

I was all alone in the house no one was home. Josh Bryce griff Jaden Blake and noah were at dog pound, quinton was with cooper, ants with avani, and Kios with olivia. I'm all alone which makes my mood drop a bit. Everyone's busy today and I'm the only one without plans

It feels like i have nothing to do anymore no purpose to be here. I'm basically only here because I'm Bryce's sister. I just annoy everyone. I hate the feeling of being a liability or being clingy. I know i can be clingy at times but i normally stop because i could feel people getting annoyed by me.

I know I've had issues before with thinking that I'm a liability. Like that one week we're i was getting a bunch of hate on social media and i hid in my room for a whole week without sleeping or eating only drinking energy drinks. I hate it when i disappoint people and let them down

Just like how i feel right now. I'm letting everybody down by not doing my job. I can't post content i can't do anything. I have a habit of fucking cutting myself and trying to kill myself which isn't good it just brings stress on other people who care about me. I've put everyone through such emotional pain it hurts me. If i were them i would never forgive me. Every time i try to kill myself i end up surviving i don't know how but i do.

Maybe I'm not worth it I'm not pretty. I've had that said to me so much in the past few years of my life. People don't know they don't understand the people who call me a bad influencer for always leaving and taking breaks are right i am a bad influencer i know it.

You know what i need right now. Some nicotine. But you know what. They've hid it from me. Like I'm some sort of baby who can't take care of themselves. I mean it's true i can't take care of myself. In Toronto i wouldn't eat right wouldn't take care of myself and look how that turned out. I went crazy tried killing my self didn't succeed. Then i went into a dark faze and fell into a deep depression blocking everyone that loved me out. I do that to fucking much. I just block people out and that's the problem. I'm my own problem

Let me just say it i hate myself I'm a piece of shit. Don't lie you know it's true. I'm a disappointment i disappoint everyone by relapsing and not getting over my problems and I'm sick of myself i really am. Why can't i just escape why can't i just leave. Whenever i tried it didn't work. Why am i still here i should've died i should've listened to Brady and went with my grandma.

I know it's mental illness but it feels like more. It feels like it's taking over me. Maybe the next time i try I'll succeed I'll make as many cuts as possible and die from blood loss. Or maybe I'll overdose. Maybe even die drowning in my own blood.

I walk into my bathroom not even looking at myself. I look through the cabinets to find a old razor from before when i lived here. I grab it and break it. What the fuck am i doing

"Your not gonna relapse your not gonna relapse your not gonna relapse" i repeat to myself over and over again i hold the blade to my skin tears falling down my face but snap out of my thoughts by the doorbell ringing. I drop the blade and walk downstairs

I don't know who it's gonna be because everyone is suppose to come back home in an hour or so. I get to the door and only open it so half my body is outside. I look to see Samantha cally and b-Brady standing at the door infront of me. Also a a car with a camera poking out from the window. Immediately i feel a wave of fear come apon me. They all smile at me evilly.

I'm i stupid. I just noticed that Sam and Brady have the same last name. Seeing them beside each other with cally too i could see they all look alike. Are they related

"Ahhh Harmony the hoe hall how's it going" Sam snickers "g-goo" i was about to say but got cut off "did i say you could speak baby girl" Brady says and i shut my mouth

"Where's my baby Jaden" cally says all sassy and annoyed "not here" i say

"He's here and i know it" cally says "he's not here. There's no cars in the drive way how could he be here" i say and she scoffs and rolls her eyes

"Hey baby girl wanna go for round hmm we've done so many rounds i can't even count them with my fingers" Brady says making them all laugh and I'm scared completely terrified

"You know your a selfish little slut. You hoe bag sleeping around with everyone. Your a whore for anyone your not worth it good you got off social media you do t deserve your fans anyways. Always leaving taking breaks and not telling anyone why. WE ALL FUCKING KNOW WHY YOUR ON A BREAK. YOU ALWAYS TRY TO KILL YOURSELF. But too bad you didn't succeed what a shame. I mean if you would've succeeded the world would be a better place right? You know what whale you don't deserve anything your friends don't give 2 shits about you if they did they would be here now but no they aren't. Aww poor little harmony left home alone you might find her dead when she comes back drowning in her own blood. You know what you do deserve to die. You've gotten to many chances. SO FUCK YOU HARMONY THE WHORE GO DIE YOU DONT DESERVE ANYTHING" Sam yells at me. I feel the tears starting again falling down my face slowly as cally and Brady laugh at me

"Awww poor little harmony having major ptsd i bet. Don't worry me and Dustin are waiting for you" Brady snickers

"I don't get why people even like you to be honest. Like your a bitch always splitting up relationships for your own benefit you selfish brat like god harmony get a life and stop ruining relationships. It's your fault me and Jaden aren't together and it's your fault Jaden and mads aren't together. Just face it you don't belong here. You belong in hell where you'll burn" cally spat making me cry more

"Stop crying pussy. You know we're right. Bryce is lying to you Emma's lying to you everyone's lying to you. They all talk behind your back calling you a bitch you know that. You a moody bitch. The only thing you deserve is hate pure hate an everyone on social media to hate you. You might as well just kill yourself already. Haha i mean you know how you've tired it before" Sam laughs

"Thank you for the fame harm. And for the new best friend I've made. Dustin" Brady says. I can't do this anymore i slam the door in their face and lock it so they can't get in

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Damnn those three need to shut their trap holes their pissinbg me off

Anyways guys have a super duper good day ever

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