Fix me (sequel to broken promises)

Its mental illness

Harmony's pov next day

Right now bryce is driving me to my first appointment with the therapist it's 2 hours long. I know that's a long time but Bryce Said that their gonna try and diagnose me today and that i could talk to them

"Harmony i know your worried but trust me it's their job to ask you the questions. They don't want to hurt you or anything ok. I know it's sensitive topics their gonna ask about but just trust them harm they just want to help" Bryce says

"I know i know I'm just nervous" i sigh

"Well come on we're here" and we both get out of the car

We get to this place and it looks pretty nice to be honest. Really homey but office vibes at the same time. I'm really nervous though. Bryce puts his hand on my shoulder and leads me inside on the place

"Hello there guys do you have an appointment" a lady asks from the other side of the desk

"Yup we do for the name harmony hall" Bryce says "ahhh harmony your just on time dr. Rosa will be out soon you guys could take a seat over there" The lady said and me and Bryce sit down

A few minutes later a kind looking woman walks out. She's wearing a white button down shirt with black pants and a burgundy cardigan holding a clip board

"Ahhh you must be harmony" she says walking up to me and Bryce

"H-hi" i say kinda nervous and shy for some reason

"Come on follow me to my office" she says she's really nice before i leave i give Bryce a hug "remember what i said harm ok" Bryce says and i nod and follow doctor Rosa into her office

"Here you can sit on the couch" she says really kindly and i sit down kinda hesitant because I've never met someone this nice before

"Let me introduce myself, hi I'm dr Rosa but you can call me lily" she says

"H-hi I'm Harmony hall" i say nervously

"Well let's get started. So I'm gonna ask you some questions it would be very helpful if you answer them truthfully you can tell me anything. Don't worry whatevers said in this room stays in this room. I'm just trying to help you harmony" she says with a kind voice and i nod

"Ok so first, what brings you here" she asks

"Umm i-i-I've had a rough past kinda gone through a lot. M-my brother thought it would b-be a good idea for me to come here b-because i- umm i recently got out of the hospital for attempting s-s-s-suicide" i say a little shakey. She writes something down on the paper and nods

"Have you ever seen a councillor or therapist in the past"

"Umm n-no" i stutter

"What made you try to commit suicide"

"Umm a f-few weeks ago i-i was k-kinda k-kidnapped from my h-house b-by m-my step dad Dustin and my ex boyfriend Brady. T-they h-hurt me and h-hit me. B-brady
R-r-raped me. A-afte did just felt numb and disgusted with myself i pushed everyone away but i didn't want to be alone i thought they would all just leave me. But the other times I tried to commit I was getting bullied in school. I used to get bullied in middle school and high school " i stutter I'm unsure about this but i just have what Bryce told me running in my mind

"So what's the problem from you view" she asks

"Uhh i-i just don't want to b-be alone or forgotten. I feel empty inside i don know what's wrong i feel numb. I have mood swings. I hurt myself i cut myself i hate myself i hate the way i look. I used to vape to make everything go away to calm me down. Yesterday i was sad and mad for a few hours but then after i fell asleep i was happy when i woke up. I'm p-paranoid i always feel like someone's watching me or someone wants to do something to me and h-hurt m-me or lash out on me. I sometimes lash out on people but i can't help it sometimes. I don't know who i am or who i want to be my mind is always changing. I'm a social media influencer and i keep on switching up on everything i don't feel like i have a purpose in life. I don't have family i only have friends. My only family is my brother" sigh and she just nods writing stuff down on a paper