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Namjoon's P.O.V

"We're in deep shit if this continues, Joon. If this is what I think it is, it'll tear us apart. She can't know about it. She won't want it anyway. Who would? We're hybrids and she's a human. It just wouldn't work. I...I don't know how long I can keep doing this. I don't hate her. Just the opposite. I want her with me....next to me. All the goddamn time and it's irritating."

"So, you're affected too."

"Yes. Apparently so. She almost got run over by a car earlier...and I...I almost lost my composure. I've felt this before. Only this time it's like it's more...real. It's so much more intense." he paused.

"Who else?"

"Jin told me he feels something, and he told me Jungkook might as well."

"Shit...shit what are we going to do, that's already the majority."

"Yoon, calm down. This is out of our control. If it is what you say it is then...what can we do?"

"What can we do? We get her as far away from us as possible? I have no fucking idea why it's her, but it'll ruin us. I don't fucking want that Joon, I don't..."

"Hey hey, listen. If...if we need her to be away from us, I'm sure the hybrids at the camp will know some sort of solution, if I can convince them. They have eyes and ears everywhere. I don't just want to abandon her..."

My eyes snapped open, and I was staring at a white ceiling. I hadn't realized I was sweating either. I hadn't forgotten about my conversation with Yoongi a while back, but dreaming about it wasn't doing me any favors.

I rubbed my eyes and I sat up, checking on everyone around me. I had been laying against Jimin, evidence that I was there still imprinted in his fur. He hadn't moved an inch, and was lightly snoring away.

I got up from the floor, looking on top of the bed and my heart practically melted. Jae and Tae were sound asleep: He was holding her from behind, and in her arms was bunny Jungkook. At the foot of the bed was Hobi and Jin, in their animal forms as well, curled up next to each other by Jae and Tae's feet. I had never seen them all so at peace, even after we had escaped from the facility. This was the picture of home.

My mind jumped back to the dream slash flashback I was having. Yoongi was scared, understandably so, but seeing this scene in front of me, it made me question further the reality of the situation. Was having Jae around really such a bad thing? As the leader of the pack, I ultimately had to make the decision, but my mind and heart are being torn in different directions.

I know it's dangerous for her to be with us right now. I know that. My instincts as a leader are screaming inside for me to get rid of her. Get rid of the danger. The other instincts inside are screaming to keep her. She makes the pack happy. Keep her as...as a...

I shook my head. Times like these, I hated having any instincts at all. I just woke up and I was already starting to have a headache. I sighed. Today was going to be another long day. I remembered seeing a vending machine that sold coffee and other drinks outside. Who knows if it actually worked in this dump, but doesn't hurt to try. Maybe Yoongi is still outside. Did he even sleep at all? I never found out why he and Jae were outside last night. She was upset, and he was pissed, that was visibly obvious. The fact that I didn't know was driving me nuts.

I grabbed Jin's jacket that he had thrown on the side chair and slipped it on, putting the hood part on my head. I checked the mirror in the bathroom to make sure my ears weren't in sight, and I left the room quietly, careful not to disturb the rest. Yoongi wasn't outside, but I sensed he was somewhere nearby, so I wasn't too concerned. The air was humid from the heavy rain from last night, and the sun was still hidden behind some clouds.