Just hold my hand - II (Kylo Ren x reader)

Chapter 14 - responsibility

Kylo headed to your private quarters and found you meditating on the floor. He didn't know you had been dismissed from the hospital wing. He took his helmet off and sat on an armchair watching you. You didn't seem to have noticed him yet.

"Hello Y/n"
You opened your eyes. "Kylo. What do you want?" You said coldly.
That felt like a bullet to Kylo. His eyes became watery as he started to speak with trembling voice. He was begging you.

"Y/n... my love. I have always lived as a human weapon, I just cared about power. Then one day you came into my life and everything changed. Now you are my everything. I can't live without you by my side, I can't sleep without holding you close to me, I can't think of my future without you. You brought humanity back in me, I've never felt as good as when you hug me and say that you love me. You are my life ... I'm so sorry for not having been there when they attacked you, I couldn't protect you and because of my stupidity we lost our girl. But trust me when I say I swear I'll never make such a mistake again. And I'll give you all the little Kylos you'll want, you just have to ask. I swear I'll make you happy forever. Give me another chance, please... "

Tears were now flowing down his eyes. You slowly turned towards him.
You got up, got to him and crawled into his arms, buring your nose in the crook of his neck. You both cried looking for comfort in each other's arms.

You felt empty, useless. "Kylo... I've thrown all the fault on you but it was also mine. I am the Commander of the First Order and should have been ready for defence. Leia froze me with the Force as she saw me and then I got thrown on the floor. I should've taken a trooper with me. I lost your child, our child. It was my responsibility to carry it safely. Please forgive me.... I need you Kylo..."
"I need you too Y/n... and of course I forgive you. Do you forgive me?"

You pulled him into a kiss, and that was your reconciliation.