Silverthorne Series - Angels and Demons

How it was back then...

Argen's POV

Alas onse na ng gabi ng maramdaman kong gutom na ako. Di ako kumain kanina dahil nabwisit talaga ako sa bubwit na iyon. Akala mo kung sino, siya lang naman ang... Ah leche! Boss ko nga pala yun. Inis na tumayo ako from my bed. This was the same room I used 10 years ago at walang nagbago, it was clean though kahit sampung taon ng walang gumagamit. 

It was made to have a gothic effect using colors of silver, white, grey and black. Ibinagay ni dad sa personality ko, which was distant and mysterious. Andito pa rin yung mga toys ko before, neatly arranged and painfully present.

I have always ran away from my past, ayaw ko ng maalala ang kahit anong parte nun. kinuha ko ang isang laruan, a toy electric guitar. Ever since I've always loved to play the guitar and drums. Kaya nga pagdating ko sa Taiwan I audtioned sa school band, eventually yung bandang yun naging sikat even after college, but not that famous to be known sa buong mundo. 

Inilapag ko ulit ito, I still have to look for the kitchen. I have forgotten where sa bahay yun pero sure ako nasa ground floor ito. Lumabas na ako ng room in the most silent way I could.

Nakita ko naman si Marah na kakalabas lang sa room ni Shy, which was adjacent to my room. 

"Argen, gising ka pa pala?" tanong ni Marah na parang nagulat na makita ako. 

"Kumusta na siya?" yun naman ang sagot ko sa kanya.

"Sinaktan mo siya badly, si Dahly kasama niya ngayon at pinapatulog siya. She does not want to talk to anybody, tanging si Dahly lang kinakausap niya. I do check from time to time though pero di niya ako kinakausap" sagot niya sa akin while crossing her arms and throwing me a questioning look. Alam ko na kung bakit.

"How was I supposed to know that she is still a virgin, naging asawa na kaya siya ni Kuya"  inis na sabi ko sa kanya.

"That is not the point, virgin or not insulto yung sinabi mo kanina. You are trying to imply that she is so cheap. Pasalamat ka at mabait si Shy, pero don't expect kindness from Dahly" natahimik na kami after she said that.

Nagkibit balikat lang ako at nagsimula ng maglakad papunta sa kitchen. I tried hard to ponder on what I did, medyo naging harsh nga ako kay Shy kanina. I didn't mean those words really, kaya lang Shy is like a reminder of everything I'm running away from...

Ngayon ko pa natanto na napaka indecent ng sinabi ko kanina. Kaya siguro galit na galit ang bubwit na iyon at nasaktan talaga si Shy...

Bakit ba kasi bumalik balik pa ako dito? Ok na buhay ko dun sa Taiwan... It's because your blood screams to be here, ako na rin ang sumagot sa tanong ko. Tama, ang dugong dumadaloy sa aking katawan ang nag udyok sa akin na bumalik dito, Once a Silverthorne, you will always be one, bound by duty, by honor and by blood... parang narinig ko ulit ang boses ni kuya as he said those words before. I said ayaw ko ng maalala kahit anong parte ng past ko, yet it always end up as a futile attempt. Here I go again trapped in a time travel...

Since bata pa kami, I was always compared sa kanya. I tried hard to be like him yet I always end up a failure. Everyone then pressured me into becoming somebody I am not, dahil nga kailangan. I cursed my bloodline, I cursed my family, my duties, I cursed the person that I was... Mas pinili ko maging rebelde, I don't want to be the empire's puppet anymore.

Pero ni minsan hindi pinaramdam ni kuya sa akin na mali ako at isa akong failure. He supported me, loved me, accepted me and tried to defend me. As twins, it felt like I only have him as a family. Kami ni dad naman parang sigawan at patigasan ng ulo ang relasyon namin so I guess ganun na talaga kami.

Then came Shysie, naalala ko pa yung araw na nakilala ko siya.

We were still Elementary students back then, anak siya ng bestfriend ni dad. We were studying in the same school, pero since mas nakakatanda kami ni kuya di namin siya kaklase.