Silverthorne Series - Angels and Demons

When the prince let down his pride...

Shysie's POV

Buti na lang hindi natamaan ang mga vital nerves ng shoulder ko, or else I may never use my right arm again, I won't be able to paint, sculp and do the things I love most. 

Busy ang mga kapatid ko sa pag-aasikaso ng defense para sa Manor, idagdag mo pa that they need to make plans for Marah's safety the most. Magkakababy kami ulit dito sa Manor, it excites me I really love kids, someday I want to be a mother too, nakakainggit nga si Marah. 

Naalala ko tuloy, Argen and I needs to make a decision soon, it's just that I can't bring up myself to say yes sa kanya, alam ko he does not want na matali and I am also not sure if gusto ko matali sa kanya. 

We might have shared something before but that was before, iba na ngayon we are like complete strangers...

I fear him sometimes, parang kasama mo ay isang ice statue, there is beauty yet there is no warmth at all. Magkasama nga kami palagi yet he completely ignores me, ni ayaw nga niyang makasama siguro ako sa isang room. 

Nung forklift ride nga, he was so stiff like he does not give a damn about me at all, he just did his duties, yun lang ba ang dahilan kung bakit siya in a way nakikisama sa akin kahit super cold?

I looked around my room, pinagpapahinga muna ako ng doctor, bored na nga ako eh I want to paint but I can't. 

I'll just try to sleep na lang... I put on my earphones and listened to Evanescence songs, si Dahly nag influence sa akin to love this group. Now playing... Imaginary

Paper flowers (x 2)

I linger in the doorway
An alarm clock screaming,
Monsters calling my name.
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me,
Where the raindrops
As they're falling tell a story.

I opened my eyes and found myself in a garden, Tinignan ko ang palibot, the riot of colorful flowers, the wooden gate and old swing na may vines na nakapulupot sa poles. This was our secret garden... 

Seeing this place again feels nostalgic...

[Chorus:]
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby.
I lie inside myself for hours,
And watch my purple sky fly over me.

Nilingon ko ang aking tabi, wala siya dito kanina... It was Argen, 10 years ago... the Argen I knew. 

I reached out to touch his face pero may biglang nagsalita.

"Don't touch me!" I looked up and found the grown-up Argen.

Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos - your reality.
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge.
The nightmare
I built my own world to escape.

He looked at me coldly like I'm a disgusting sight, an eyesore...

It sent shivers down my spine, "what have I done to you for you to treat me this way?" 

I asked him as tears started falling from my eyes. 

[Chorus:]
In my field of paper flowers,
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours,
And watch my purple sky fly over me.