𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍, 80s, 90s, 00s

jordan catalano 🌀

My life is officially OVER. I may or may not have written a heart felt letter about my love for Jordan Catalano and sorta maybe lost it. I can't believe this. Anyone, I mean anyone could have found it and showed it to him. If that's the case....I hope my time has come. I couldn't live anymore.

I packed up by books and looked over to Jordan staring out the window waiting for everyone to leave the classroom. He looked so cute....snap out of it!

"Jordan..." I trailed off ready to explain the letter and everything. Before I could say anything else he pulled out the white folded letter and handed it to me.

"I found this. It's yours right?" He asked and I took it while cringing. No, no, no, no. Deny, deny, deny.

"Y-yeah it is. But uh- I wrote it about someone else. It was about my boyfriend I had over summer at camp. He's uh- in Canada now and, well, I wanted to remember him and so I wrote this for him. The only reason I ever used your name was to keep his a secret in case anyone found it because he's uh- he's with the FBI and his identity is very secretive. I'm not allowed to uh, use his name." I sounded like a complete idiot. Even Jordan looked at me like I was an alien on Earth.

"Yeah, well, I didn't read it. So you don't have to make up all this—" Jordan started.

"Yeah, like you didn't. It stated with: Dear Jordan, and you didn't read it." I snapped back trying to save his lies. I already knew my life was over.

"Whatever. I didn't read it." Jordan denied again. I rolled my eyes at him and opened the paper looking over my words again.

"You expect me to think that? Look I know you read it—" I said again with my eyebrows raised with sass.

"I don't care what you think. I don't, okay?" Jordan snapped trying to end the conversation. I looked at him like he was crazy.

"You must think I'm stupid! If you- okay. If you didn't read it, why? Why didn't you? Were the words to big and personal. Was it to much emotion for you huh?" I asked with not even thinking.

"Would you shut up!" Jordan yelled making me stop and take a step back. Jesus...

"Y-you can't read huh? That's why isn't it?" I asked walking closer trying to be sympathetic.

"It's pathetic. I know, okay? Just leave me alone. Don't waste your time with an idiot like me." Jordan said waving me off. I could see the hurt in his eyes. But he tried to mask it.

Jordan didn't want to show an ounce of emotion. It was heartbreaking. Honestly.

For some reason I felt the need to give him the warmest hug ever. He looked so innocent. He really needed this. So, I wrapped my two arms around him catching him off guard, but he soon gave into it. Hugging my waist close, taking in my embrace. I could tell he hasn't gotten a hug like this in awhile. I'm glad I was the one to help him with it.