How To Get A Divorce From A Billionaire ?

Episode 33

_" i'm going to crush him"
Eliyas said coldly.
He then stood up .. Walked pass me, and then started to undress to put on his housewears.
After he finished doing that he looked at me again and added:
_" his work at the magazine is clean, only his subordinates __"
_"Eliyas!" I yelled.
I looked at him coldly and said:
_" we haven't met for a month, and all you talk about is Azziz this Azziz that! Am i a wall to you? Am i air to you?"
I'm a one line thinker, i have already pointed  that before, when i see my husband who i missed for a month i only think of my husband who i missed for a month!
You see, if you exclude Azziz and his sudden appearance in my life again, you'll find that pretty much all i did for the last month was to eat, sleep, work, and wait for Eliyas to be back again..
We had lost a long time already, i wanted us to be happy together, to fix us properly, to trust one another fully or at least to that extent when i walk indecent by accident in front a strange man the first question my husband asks me wouldn't be:
_" did you know he was still here?"
At the age of 27 i no longer wanted to lead the life of a stray cat, i wanted to "settle".. with all the meanings this word carries, i wanted a warm family around me.. A warm person to lean on, i was done with wasting time.
I wanted Eliyas to just look at me and say:
_"long time no see Noursine.. How have you been?"
As for Azziz, we have plenty of time to discuss him later!
Still, that man gave me a cold face and said:
_"i'm tired.. I'll take a shower first, you can go to sleep."
Once he walked inside the bathroom and slammed the door shut a bit violently i felt disappointed.
There he goes again.. Acting like the man i left three years earlier.
Seeing how cold he was with me, i decided that we should preferably talk less until he settles his emotions and that he should sleep on the sofa because he usually gives me his back sleeping beside me in such state of mind, and the last thing the freshly forgiving me wanted to see was the back of the man she hardly forgave for the past.
So i opened the closet.. Took the extra quilt we have in there and put it on the sofa, i took his pillows from his side of the bed and threw them on the sofa as well.
Then i left the lights on .. And lied on the bed to sleep.
When Eliyas finally walked out of the bathroom, he looked at the sofa for a long time.. Then he turned to look at me.
I have big round dark eyes, and those big round dark eyes were wide open and daringly looking at him as well with a "yes, you're kicked to the sofa .. So what are you going to do about it?" Stare.
He gazed at me.. I gazed back.
He gazed more at me .. I gazed more back at him!
My stance was clear, that if he decided to give me the cold shoulder for a matter i had nothing to do with nor i intentionally did, then i was going to punish him for that.
After a very long time spent in that gazing battle Eliyas finally ordered:
_"Noursine.. You better come take my pillows back to the bed."
_"Fine" i said coldly.
I stood up, walked pass him and held his pillows back to his side on the bed, then when i went back to my side, instead of sleeping there i held my pillows and decided that i will go sleep on the sofa.
When i was walking pass him again he held my wrist tight and made me look at him, to my surprise he finally asked:
_" did you love that man before?.. Like a woman loves a man"
I was dumbfounded with that question, especially that it jumped from his mouth just like that as if he already led a whole conversation inside his head and that was the concluding question he reached.
I looked at him not sure what i should say, so i remained silent until he continued:
_" when i was investigating him today i found that his work was clean in the magazine, i couldn't catch much against him. He knew already that he was going to be investigated by me so he left a lot of findings to my spies on purpose.. A lot of pictures of you two together in one of his false accounts with a note threatening that he will expose them to the public the moment i aknowledge our marriage, but that's not the point .. Noursine.. I spent the few past hours just looking at your pictures with him, i know you too well, i saw the smile you gave him in them and how you looked at him.. The happiness you had together, you loved him for real.. Didn't you? He didn't have a onesided love with you.. You loved him back as well, haven't you?"
I was surprised with Azziz's ill intentions, there i was going to plead for mercy on his behalf while he was plotting to betray me and ruin my life on my back, why do people have to be such frauds!
Still, there was a big misunderstanding Eliyas apparently had about my previous relationship with Azziz, so i decided to be honest with him no matter what, i truthfully answred:
_" yes, i loved him.. I genuinely loved him in the past."
he let go of my wrist.. And nodded in understanding not looking at me anymore, he asked next:
_" you had a boyfriend before that, did you love him?"
_" No"
He took a deep breath, then he painfully asked:
_" we have been married for 4 years, have you ever loved me?"
I didn't want to answer .. I really didn't, i had no idea what he was thinking about behind those dark eyes of his but i knew it was no good.
The pain in his words was so clear for me not to notice.
You see, this man never asked me whether i loved him before .. Not even once, i kept only thinking what exactly did he see in those pictures to make him finally decide to ask me a question he already knew the answer for.
Looking at the pain in his face i wondered: why did he want to be hurt even more?
I would have answered: "No" in the past since i had no consideration to his feelings, but if i do that now that i came to realise how affectionate that man was towards me and how i have mercilessly hurt him along the years .. Then i shall never forgive my self.
So instead of a blunt "No", i decided to share what i felt honestly, i said:
_"when i was with Azziz i felt so happy with him, i wanted to have him forever.. That is what i think love is. When things started to go downhill with him i lost all those silly desires and i just drove him out of my life.. I haven't missed him nor thought about him after that, nor i wanted him back. When i married you i wasn't as happy as i was with him, nor i felt so excited for my forever with you.. That is what i thought the opposite of love is.. But i don't understand my self anymore, when things went downhill and i left i still thought about you and missed you.. And once i had a chance again i held on to you with a determination i never thought i could have, i wanted you back despite everything, i never felt this obsession towards a man before you, What i have for you is not the fluffy love i once had for Azziz, these feelings are different and much stronger.."
I posed for a moment.. I looked intensely inside his eyes and said:
_"Eliyas.. I desire you."
Once i finished saying these words he hugged me so tight i felt my ribs were crushed under his arms, i didn't want to notify him that i was being killed by the strength of his emotions not to blow up the moment.
He chuckled in my ear.. And as he kissed my neck repeatedly he whispered in my ear:
_" i don't understand as well why i'm still feeling so happy although all the words you said were just another way to tell me you don't actually love me, i must be a masochist"
_"and what about you Eliyas filladi, do you love me?" I asked with a muffled joyful voice.
He kissed me passionately to answer that question.
As my clothes were being taken off that scum still found the leisure and guts to say between his kisses:
_" 'i desire you' is much more elaborate that 'i don't hate you anymore'.. I'm very satisfied with it."
The next morning when my alarm started ringing at 7am, and i woke up to experience a zombie state in which my body was suffering from a severe lack of sleep and exhaustion, the scum in cause who was sleeping beside me and who was awakened by my alarm as well asked:
_"are you awake?"
_" hmm.. I'm very sleepy and tired though"
He circled my waist with his arms to bring me closer to him and hug me under the quit.
After a long time .. He shamelessly remembered to comment:
_"in the future don't say words like 'i desire you' so often, especially not in the morning when we have to go to work.. We still need to lead a busy life outside of the bed"
I gave him a cold gaze .. And then i pinched his cheek so hard while he amusedly laughed.
The room was faintly lit since at 7 am in a winter morning the sun hasn't yet fully lit the sky so i couldn't see him clearly, still the sound of his genuinely happy laughter was like music to my heart, i stopped pinching him, and i started gently touching the contours of his face: his edgy nose.. His wide eyes and thick eyelashes, his smiling lips..
When i first pinched his cheek I was just planning to tell him to ask for a leave on my behalf for that day since the only outcome of me going to work after a sleepless exhausting night was to bring ruin to the company, plus i was the CEO's wife and i had to profit fully from that.
But once the tips of my fingers touched his smiling face, i found my self asking instead:
_"Eliyas, are you happy with me?"
_"hmm"
I bent closer and kissed the tip of his nose, then i said:
_"alright then, don't feel sad about irrelevant people to us in the future, i only want you now.. And i want us to be happy together."
We both haven't went to work that day, we just slept until midday.
The meals were delivered to our room by the servants, while i was eating i iddly flipped through the channels in the Tv only to be dumbfounded with the flash news which started to successively apear on the big screen in the News channel:
" Filladi co acquires 'L' corporation in G country" .. " 'L' corporation annouces bankruptcy and all its assets are transferred to Filladi co" .. "Azziz Chouli resignes from his position as director of Assinet Magazine" .. "Azziz Chouli is followed by defamation and conspiracy lawsuits" .. Etc.
"L" corporation was Filladi's main partner in G country's branch, so when Eliyas said he wasn't free to listen to their compromises anymore he meant that he will simply make them go bankrupt!
Not only that, didn't he say that Azziz was clean? Then where did those lawsuits come from and why would he resign from the magazine that he had found overnight!
I looked at the man who was calmly working on his laptop beside me while intermittently filling his mouth with food and i asked while pointing my finger to the tv:
_"Eliyas, what is this?"
He raised his eyes and followed my finger, after he red the flashing news he calmly asked:
_" Are you angry because i started taking actions against Azziz without discussing it with you?"
Following him in court and making him resign is only a "start" for the beast sitting beside me!!
But that was not the point, i asked him rightfully:
_"how about your sister? You want her to kill her self?"
_" if she wants to keep her life or to end it because of a fraud then that is not my business, she's going to learn from her mistakes in both cases, either in this lifetime or in the afterlife."
I looked at him feeling like a nerve was unplugged inside my head and i yelled:
_"how can you be so cruel! She's your sister!"
_"if she was not my sister do you think i would have let her go everytime after all the rubish she and her mother constantly spouted at me? I'm not going to let a rat poison my family just because i have a blind sister."
_" what are you going to do next?" I asked.
_" if you're asking me whether i'll go further with Azziz then yes i definitely will, this will be a reminder for him not to cross limits and not to act smart, the matter of the company and G country branch you don't have to worry about it this is how business is, as for my family i had already arranged for a villa for them to move to, you and i will live here alone, with Nana if she pleases to stay"
I turned off the tv and i turned to have a proper serious talk with him.
I took a deep breath.. And i said:
_" Eliyas, why don't we just go to the new place and start a life together there, you don't have to drive them out of here.. Let us leave in peace."
He closed his laptop and whispered:
_" come here"
While he extended his arm and wrapped me in a hug, he soon added:
_" living in this place with those people was not the best experience for the child that i was, i never thought life could be fun until one summer i was sent to my uncle's little house and i spent time with my little cousin, i wanted to bring her live with me here ever since, at first i thought of you as a sister Noursine, but when growing up and becoming the man that i am that desire never changed, it got only stronger everytime i saw you.. Then one day i was eating a plate of kouskous in Nana's house looking at the girl who was sitting in front of me sneakily stuffing my plate with the cabbages that she hated, and all i thought about was to kiss her. I had always knew what i wanted.. I wanted you to live here with me.. No other place will do, i wanted to have a family with you in this house."