How To Get A Divorce From A Billionaire ?

Episode 12

I couldn't help it .. I just stood on the tips of my toes, pulled his neck, and I kissed him.

It was just a peck in fact, that lasted for a nano second before I had all my senses back.. and I pulled myself back.

Still, we were both so taken aback with what has just happened, so much  that once I landed back on my feet again and pushed Eliyas a little away from me it was akin pushing an air balloon .. He was pushed about two steps away with ease.

_"I.. I.. I didn't .." I stuttered feeling totally confused with what I did.

He was staring back at me as if some major nerve was unplugged inside his head.. Not saying a word.

I felt heat rushing to my face so fast, flustered, I only wanted to dig a hole in an ice cube and bury my head inside it!

Where have my pride gone?

Where have my promises of never getting close to him and never allowing him to touch me again disappear to?

To me.. Eliyas became forbidden the day I lost my baby because of him, I would have forgiven any mistake or sin of his, but not this, not my most precious treasure being taken away from me.

I felt so horrible about what I did soon after, as if a thousand insects started crawling on my skin, a sheer repulse and disappointment made me curse myself over and over again for weakening because of him, again.

And it's really disheartening, to hate a man so awfully much, and to want him just as bad at the same time.

While still being in a state of confusion.. The smell of burning and the ugly sound of fried vegetables running out of water and getting more stuck on the pan was loud in the silence.

I quickly turned off the fire..  then helplessly leaned my arms on the kitchen counter, nervously tapping on it.

This is another habit of mine .. I always tap rhythmically on whatever surface that makes a sound when I'm nervous. 

_" forget this happened.. I'm just not feeling ok today."

I finally said, giving my back to him.

Sighing, I turned to look at him again, and tried to explain:

_"I was.. I don't know, just forget it."

Eliyas who was standing in front of me looked like he already snapped out of his confusion, observing my messed up state he thankfully was gentleman enough to suggest:

_"I'll go back to the living room first.. Should I order some food?"

_" no need to do that."

When he walked out of the kitchen my eyes followed him .. For no reason I kept secretly watching him through the kitchen door to see whether he'll throw a fist in the air in celebration because I was the first among us both to lose the battle of pride and temptation, or whether he'll go have a look at him self on the mirror and smile proudly to his fine reflexion that made all my shields melt.

Well, I don't know why both my constantly strong sense of logic and high IQ were having such a strike fall out and suddenly I became this dumb creature, sigh, Let's just say that the one can not always count on the constant efficiency of his own brain.

Anyways, I kept secretly watching that man .. He walked to the sofa, he sat on it but instead of making a fist or whatever silly celebration party I thought he might do, he didn't seem in a happy mood at all.

Against all my expectations, it was clear he was hurt more than happy. As he rested his back on the back of the sofa and absently looked at the space in front of him, he covered his eyes with his forearm.. His expression was so sad and in pain.