lunch time // seungjin

二十九

the seven boys set out blankets and pillows in the living room, got comfortable and played the movie “ violet evergarden ”. jisung was leaning on minho's shoulder with seungmin still in his lap, minho shyly slung his hand over jisung's shoulder and pulled the younger close, the three boys occupied on side of the couch while hyunjin and chan occupied the other side and felix and changbin were tucked in blankets while leaning against the wall.

they were honestly awkward, hyunjin didnt know whether screwing chan was a good choice, whenever he saw seungmin knowing that the younger knew about the affair, it just made him so guilty. it felt like he did something wrong, he felt like he betrayed the younger's trust. but now seungmin was comfortable in someone else's arms, not his. if seungmin didnt care about his feelings, why should he the other way round?

hyunjin got into chan's lap and wrapped his legs around chan's waist he put his arms around chan's neck and seductively bit on his earlobe, he sucked on the other's soft skin and leaved a hickey. chan let a moan slip, drawing the attention of everyone onto them.

“ geez horny kids, take a left on the second floor, third door is a guest room. there's whatever you need in the drawer of the nightstand. don't worry the walls are soundproof. ” jisung teased, he couldve sworn he felt seungmin tense in his arms but he shrugged it off.

chan stood up carrying hyunjin, hands securing around around the taller boy. but hyunjin mumbled a tiny,“ let's not, we should watch the movie with them. ”

chan was disappointed but nonetheless he sat back down and pulled hyunjin closer to him.

they watched the movie in silence after, it was until the middle of the movie when one of the characters died that a small sniff could be heard from seungmin. he subconsciously straightened his back to focus more on the movie, a few tears finding their way down his chubby cheeks.

seungmin started sobbing loudly when the character's best friend realised that he had died, everyone's eyes darted to tiny seungmin crying. their heart cooed at seungmin whenever he used his sweater paw to wipe his tears away, his breathing hitched from time to time.

“ h-he di-died and- ” seungmin sniffed. “ he di-didnt even see his b-best f...frie-nd.”

seungmin was the only one so captivated by the movie, he didnt realise the other boys were all looking at him and chuckling at how cute he was. hyunjin smiled bitterly, seeing the little boy cry over the movie was cute but he wanted cradle the younger in his arms and tell him everything was okay.

seungmin hated to admit it but he was afraid that he would be the one who died and not see his family, his friends. part of him was crying because he saw himself in that character, he was afraid, now that he had friends and people who cared about him. what if one day comes and he can't think properly? he's going to lose these people who cared about him when he went missing, these people who he hasnt met for long but mad him feel so involved, then what is he going to do?

hyunjin leaned over and picked seungmin up, the boy wasnt crying over the movie anymore it was solely him overthinking. his hand instinctively went to seungmin's hair and started playing with it.

“ hey yall continue with the movie, ill be with him upstairs. ” hyunjin said, he was so concerned about the crying boy in his arms, he didnt even look in the way of chan that was literally burning holes into seungmin's back. don't get chan wrong, he cares about seungmin, from the bottom of heart he does but when the man that is carrying seumgmin is the man he's been liking for sometime? he has every right to be protective, they did have a special sexual bond.

hyunjin remembered what jisung said, he limped his way up the stairs trying his best not to strain his ankle. he took a left on the second floor and opened the third door. it was a minimalistic room, with a full black bed and white walls. there was also a black couch that hyunjin was planning on sleeping on tonight.

hyunjin walked over to the bed and put the younger boy down, seungmin stopped crying and was slowly drifting off to sleep. he gave the other boy a pat on his head and whispered a small goodnight before trying to slip his arms out from under seungmin.

seungmin wasn't fully asleep yet, he raised his head and looked at hyunjin and he slightly pouted,“ c..c-cuddles. ” he whispered, almost silently. a smile tugged at the corners of hyunjin's lip and he gladly slid into bed beside seungmin.

it was hyunjin's choice to do it with chan, to seungmin hyunjin had always been an annoying senior that has bullied him in ways and toyed with him sexually. seungmin knew about their little affair in class, part of him was trying to convince himself that it's good. maybe hyunjin has found his other half? his boyfriend? this means hyunjin will not bother him right?

seungmin always wanted for hyunjin to leave him alone, but why does it hurt so bad? hyunjin found someone to love, to bother, to care about then he would forget about seungmin. he would stop his endless bothers, teases and it will be over for them, they would become strangers and to hyunjin seungmin was nothing but one of his many toys right?

seungmin didnt want to lose hyunjin, if they couldnt have something special then theyll have something basic. even if it meant they had a hyung and dongsaeng  relationship.

seungmin curled into a ball and snuggled into hyunjin's chest, he stared up at the blonde and mumbled a small,“ thank you hyung. ”

not hwang, not hyunjin, not jinnie.

hyung, just hyung because he's only brother figure and nothing more.

okay why do i want to slap hyunjin so much hes such a jerk but then hes nice LIKE BITCH MAKE UP YOUR MIND WHAT YOU WNA BE, but then i remind myself im the evil author behind his yoyo attitude 👁️👄👁️

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