lunch time // seungjin

三十九

hyunjin scoffed as he closed the door behind him, he really couldnt believe anything that jeongin said. it was just so unrealistic, so disgusting that he could lie about something like that. just how screwed was jeongin's brain?

he opened the door to the room that seungmin was in and saw that the other was still asleep, his breathing was rushed and though he was out cold, his body still reacted to his injuries and he was coughing from his sore windpipe.

hyunjin immediately rushed over upon hearing the weak coughs, he knew that seungmin needed water but how was he going to drink? he would definitely choke so pouring the water straight into his mouth was off the list.

hyunjin grabbed a mineral water bottle and took a sip of water in his mouth before leaning down, body hovering right above seungmin's unconscious body and connected their lips. he slowly let small amounts of water into seungmin's mouth and it smoothly slid down seungmin's throat.

after letting seungmin have some water, hyunjin decided to clean seungmin's body with a wet cloth since he couldnt afford to bring seungmin into the bathtub and risk hurting him. he dampened a cloth with lukewarm water and started wiping around seungmin's neck, the red swelling has gone away but it was starting to be replaced by a faint purple bruising that was bound to bruise even more with time to come. then he lifted the clothing off seungmin's torso and his heart ached at what he saw.

chan was originally strong plus having small hands, the pressure of each punch really showed on seungmin's porcelain skin. the bruises have already formed and it covered most of seungmin's torso. it was of a dark purple shade with dots of black, hyunjin winced at how much pain seungmin must have been under for him to bruise this much and even vomit blood earlier.

hyunjin was almost done with cleaning seungmin's torso when his arm started to cramp, he accidentally applied pressure onto one of seungmin's bruises and the other seemed to have a huge reaction to it. his whole body jerked against the bed and his body started seizing and hyunjin didnt know what to do. he grabbed seungmin's shoulders, trying to hold him in place before he hurts himself but all of a sudden seungmin stopped moving.

seungmin's head hurt. he could hear his heartbeat loud and clear booming in his head, he was beyond confused with what was going on because he couldnt really feel any part of his body. he felt the familiar muscle contraction of his eyelids moving yet everything was still dark. there was that bit of white in the black that he could " see " and then he started to regain feeling in his limbs and body.

immense pain shot burned his throat and especially his torso and he let out a shaky breath and felt a groan rising up his throat but his vocal chords didnt seem to work. despite the pain and his urge to groan, whimper, shout, he didnt seem to be able to make a sound. he blinked over and over again but it was still the same black scene.

" seungmin can you hear me, if you can hear me move your hand please. " seungmin heard faintly, his brain reacted and moved. he felt a warm hand wrap around his own and instantly relaxed when he felt hyunjin's arms around his tiny frame, he could recognise from the comforting smell of hyunjin's colonge.

" min everything is fine, you need to sleep. ill explain everything after you get more sleep okay? " hyunjin said, it seemed like seungmin didnt remember anything and it was great that seungmin didnt remember, hyunjin didnt want the younger to have a panic attack when his body was in such a weak state. the younger boy listened to hyunjin and shut his eyes to let the fatigue take over his sore body and draw him to dream land. hyunjin fell asleep slowly after seungmin, keeping the smaller boy tight in his arms, he vowed that he would stay by seungmin's side and not anyone hurt him, not again.

it was midnight when seungmin jolted awake, recollections of his incident with jeongin appeared as nightmares when he was sleeping. jeongin's sinister smile that was on his face when choking seungmin just couldnt get out of seungmin's mind. that evil smirk traumatised seungmin so much. he pushed his way out of hyunjin's arms and collapsed onto the floor, causing a loud thud. it hurt a lot more considering his injuries wouldnt allow him to move in such a vigorous manner. he gasped for air but it felt like his windpipe was closing in on him, then he gagged. feeling his salivary glands producing large amounts of what tasted like a disgustingly salty water, he knew he need to vomit. the smile stuck in his mind was so disgusting, he was breaking under the physical pain and mental confusion everything was driving him crazy.

when seungmin landed on the floor, there was a loud thud and it abruptly snapped hyunjin out from his sleeping state, his arms felt empty and his eyes caught a shaking figure crouching on the floor. he immediately knew it was seungmin and he rushed over to the boy, judging from how pale and that seungmin was retching hyunjin knew that seungmin needed to vomit.

hyunjin scooped seungmin into his arms and rushed him to the toilet. tears were starting to roll down seungmin's dull eyes, the sleep definitely helped in the blood clots dissolving away because seungmin could see more light in his vision just not clear, but he didn't remember that his " dream " is actually what happened in reality.

seungmin's PTSD was under control for 2 years now, but ever since he met hyunjin. recollections of that incident kept flashing back into his life, plus this life threatening incident it seemed like he was relapsing to what he was back then.

broken, guilty, suicidal, depressed.

and thats the end of this chapter fjifjndjd!!
im not updating as much now but im trying to make time to write and post so big thanks to everyone for being patient with me, hope you have a great day ahead :D

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