lunch time // seungjin

四十

tw! short vomit scene

a pained expression, pale skin, and he turned away from hyunjin and faced the toilet, throwing up the stomach acid that burned his throat. the disgusting stench filled the air making hyunjin's stomach churn in disgust. beads of sweat covered seungmin's forehead and seungmin started shaking uncontrollably, crying while vomiting mouthfuls of stomach acids. he couldnt count the number of times his whole body racked forwards while his stomach's content tried to find its way out of his mouth. 

after what seemed like an eternity of seungmin's ragged breathing, vomiting of stomach acid and hyunjin's comforting back rubs, seungmin finally stopped and leaned back into hyunjin's arms.

after calming down for abit, hyunjin carried seungmin to the sink and washed his mouth of the icky taste.

" h-hyung i-i h-had a very bad dream about j-jeon...ngin. " seungmin managed to say, though it could barely be heard, his throat definitely got much better.

" it's okay min, hyung is here with you. " hyunjin assuringly comforted as he carried seungmin back to the bed to sleep, he had to explain everything to seungmin and he didn't know how to.

- a few hours later -

while seungmin fell back asleep from the exhaustion, from hyunjin could barely bring himself to close his eyes. whenever he closed them, this anxiety of someone hurting seungmin always jolted him awake. he kept looking at the boy sleeping peacefully in his arms and kept tightening them, hyunjin was so afraid that someone would hurt seungmin again. and he couldn't do anything again.

the dark eye bags under hyunjin's eyes noticably stood out from his honey skin, a frown has caused his brows to be furrowed. just then seungmin's eyes started to flutter, hyunjin took a big breath. it's time to explain.

" h-hyung... are you there...? " seungmin weakly called out, his vision was still blurry more to the blackish side.

" yeah min, hyung is right here. " hyunjin assured.

" hyung what time is it? it so dark. " seungmin asked innocently, still unaware of what happened.

" you don't remember anything? j-jeongin..? "

jeongin seungmin thought, jeong- the smile, the choke, the other side of the usually innocent boy came rushing back to him. then it clicked, jeongin is the psycho.

so the nightmare, everything in it, its real.

there was this sense of relief and anxiousness that washed over seungmin, he was relieved that neither chan nor felix were the psychos but he was worried. everyone in jisung's house were clueless, how was he going to explain? 

questions rushed through his mind: what going to happen if i out jeongin? chan... he punched me so hard didnt he, because he thought i hurt jeongin. if i out jeongin then chan will hate me, what are the chances he'll believe me? no it doesn't matter whether he trusts me, there's others. they'll believe me right ? no none of them know me well, i only met them a few days before jeongin, no one's going to believe me, no one's going to believe me!

" hey hey min, i know you probably can't see me but breathe, you feel my hands right? grab onto them yes, and breathe with hyung okay? " hyunjin assured, pulling seungmin into his arms. it seemed like seungmin was so deep in thought he didnt even realise his breathing had picked up and he was shaking, he physically relaxed in hyunjin's arms but his mind couldnt help but race all over the place. he was so worried about the consequences, it seemed like everything was so risky, everything he initially thought of doing seemed so distant at the moment. he couldnt see nor understand the relevance of informing the school side that jeongin was the psycho, it seemed like no one was going to belive him.

no one was going to believe him.

after awhile, seungmin sighed. what has to be done has to be done anyways, even if it meant everyone around him losing trust in him and changing their views od him as a person, what needs to be done would be inevitable anyways.

" hyung could you on the lights, i- i dont know.... i hope ill be able to see something? " seungmin pleaded with a sense of desperation in his voice, he hoped god was blessing him enough to at least let him see the bare minimum. he felt hyunjin leave his side and hear the light switch flicker on, he turned his head in the direction he heard the light switch flick and thankfully he was hyunjin's figure. everything was there, it certainly was there but it just wasnt clear.

a small grateful smile tugged at the corners of his lips and he heaved a sigh of relief. seungmin took a deep breath and maneuvered his way to the edge of the bed, his stuck his weak legs down and the soles of his foot came in contact with the cold marble floor, he shivered slightly before transferring his weight onto his legs. it seemed like everything was going well until he stood up, his legs wobbled and gave out under him.

seungmin braced himself for a hard landing but... it never came? he opened his eyes and faintly saw hyunjin, he couldve swore in his blurry sight hyunjin's brows were knitted together out of worry.

seungmin didnt really have much control in his legs to properly support himself so he couldnt exactly get out of his position in hyunjin's arms. hyunjin's mind was blank and all he could think of was how for once he saved seungmin from pain. the first. if he had just moved a fraction of a second less he may not have been able to catch seungmin, but he did so yes. he needs to keep on high alert then everything will be fine, seungmin will be safe. just like how he caught seungmin from failing, he could do the same. he had to because he couldnt bare to see seungmin hurt again.

everything started to move in slow-mo, hyunjin's hand supporting seungmin's waist from him falling. they looked into each other's eyes, in that moment hyunjin couldnt help but feel tears pool at his eyes because he was relieved that he caught seungmin, it calmed the anxiety that spiked went seungmin's legs went out. hyunjin leaned down, closer and closer to seungmin's face until he could feel the other's hitched breath on his cheek. he angled his neck and reluctantly pressed his lips against seungmin's ones.

seungmin closed his eyes in he moment, feeling hyunjin's hot breath and lips. everything else in the background melted away, nothing could compare to this moment, hyunjin tightened his grip on seungmin's waist and pressed harder on seungmin's lips. they were in their own little world for a while when suddenly the sound of the doorknob rung in the the room, hyunjin swiftly grasped seungmin's thighs and heaved the younger off the floor to wrap his leg's around hyunjin's waist.

hyunjin bit on seungmin's lip before pulling away to look at the mess seungmin was in, he was breathless and red tinted his cheeks and he was avoiding eye contact because he was shy and embarrassed by their previous affection. seungmin's back was facing the door and god he was so thankful for he wouldnt have known how to react if whoever walked in just saw what was happening between them.

hyunjin couldnt help but smirk at seungmin's flustered reaction, he turned to face the door to see chan with a clearly disgusted and pissed look on his face.

the jealousy that seungmin is the one in hyunjin's arms and not him. the hatred that hyunjin is teasing someone but that someone is not him. that disgust of the happy couple infront of him. all of a sudden it seemed like the guilt of hitting seungmin didnt exist anymore. rage blurred his vision and he rolled his eyes.

" come downstairs we need to talk. "

PLEASE NOT @ HOW I STOPPED UPDATING FOR LIKE 3 WEEKS?????? but yes i had examinations and theyre actly not over yet- i couldnt find the time to continue chapters like i had this chapter in my draft for 2 weeks but i only found time to finish it today :') i still have 2 more weeks of exams but i got like 2 of my papers back and idk im DISAPPOINTED and i totally bombed my emath paper today so im definitely getting a B on that.

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