lunch time // seungjin

十一

" who is being so noisy ahhh. " seungmin cutely whined as his alarm rang . nope he didnt remember to turn of his alarm , so there he was being woken at 6am . their " play " only ended at 2am in the morning , 4 hours of sleep was not enough for seungmin .

seungmin groaned as he tried to sit up , but he realised he was being spooned by .... hyunjin . a blush crept up his face as he felt hyunjin pull him even closer into his embrace . it took a solid 5 minutes for seungmin wiggle out of the older's bear hug and replace his spot with a booster to fill the emptiness .

seungmin slipped into the bathroom for his morning shower , the younger was genuinely surprised when he realised that hyunjin bathed him and gave him a new change of clothes . he decided to skip his shower and just brush his teeth and wash his face , only thing was he didnt have a toothbrush .

seungmin bent down and opened the drawer under the sink , assuming it was the toiletries drawer . instead he opened to a variety of lubes of different flavours ( a/n im not lying lubes have flavour , condoms too 😳 ) and boxes of XL sized condoms . the boy was in shock of the things infront of him and he froze there . just then the door creaked open but seungmin was so shocked he didnt hear hyunjin enter .

" so i see my baby boy wants to play huh ? " hyunjin smirked . seungmin , alarmed at the presence turned towards to voice but because of the squatting position he was in he turned to face hyunjin's crotch solely covered by a pair of boxers .

seungmin's first instinct was to move away , he did by falling backwards and he tilted his head up to face hyunjin's cheeky gaze . hyunjin bent down face to face with seungmin and he leaned in closer and closer until their faces were centimeters away . if hyunjin leaned over even more their lips would have collided , seungmin was breath taken seeing hyunjin's face so up close and he shut his eyes to avoid eye contact with the older .

then after a good 30 seconds , hyunjin left the bathroom and something on seungmin's thigh . upon hearing the door click shut , seungmin peeked to check that hyunjin has left the toilet . he glanced down and saw a new toothbrush on his thigh ," oh he was taking a toothbrush for me... he wasnt going to kiss me- " seungmin slapped his hands on his burning cheeks and looked himself in the mirror .

it was then that the memories of their " play " a few hours ago came flooding into his mind . seungmin internally cringed at the scene of him crying infront of hyunjin and he was furious at himself for allowing hyunjin to do that to him . out of anger , he punched the mirror and grabbed one of the smithereens of broken glass and pushed up the his hoodie sleeve .

seungmin had tears flowing down his cheeks because he hated himself for what happened , and the worse thing was he let it happen . he saw the bandage but at this point the wrecked boy wasnt thinking straight that hyunjin most probably saw the cuts and cleaned them for him . seungmin ripped off the plaster , and added on to the bar code line of cuts .

seungmin pushed the shard of glass deep into his upper arm and slid it across . it was the deepest he had ever went since he start self-harming and this time the pain was equivalent to 3 of his usual cuts . the pain acted as a hand that grabbed around seungmin's throat stopping him from screaming .

seungmin was about to slide the shard of glass across his skin once more and then hyunjin walked into the toilet . hyunjin who was making breakfast in the kitchen was wondering why seungmin was taking so long and now he walked in to a messed up bathroom and a broken seungmin .

" kim seungmin what are you doing ‽ " hyunjin shouted at seungmin . the younger , dropped the glass shard and curled into a ball in the midst of the mess of blood and glass smithereens . the older , cautiously stepped into the bathroom and carried the tiny boy out of the bathroom . he held seungmin close to his chest , feeling seungmin's sobs and hitch in breaths .

hyunjin sat seungmin down on the bed and left the boy sobbing as he grabbed the first aid kid . he cleaned the boy's wound in silence knowing seungmin doesnt want to talk about it . hyunjin grabbed a towel and pressed it hard against the open cut to stop the bleeding , seungmin bit down hard on his lip to stop himself from groaning . the younger boy didnt even want to make eye contact with the other and kept his head hung low .

hyunjin saw that seungmin was in distress and changed positions so he was now behind of the trembling younger . hyunjin placed his arm around seungmin's waist and rubbed circles on the other's tummy as he attended to the wound .

after cleaning out the wounds and covering it with a bandage , seungmin has calmed down and has ever since been quiet . he was tired from the night before and now he woke up and literally cried his energy away , his eyes were shutting and he was slowly unable to sit up by himself . hyunjin changed seungmin out of the blood stained hoodie and replaced it with another hoodie .

hyunjin laid on the bed , pulling seungmin onto him so the younger was laying directly on his chest and was straddling him . he called in to school to inform the his teachers that he wont be attending school today and then called seungmin's form teacher and told the same . ( a/n hyunjin did you do a bg check on the boy or what bc im very sure seungmin didnt tell you his sir name and teacher 😼 )

hyunjin was strongly against self-harming and he hated that seungmin does it , hyunjin was just starting to like seungmin because of his body . but somehow , knowing that seungmin self-harms he wanted to understand this boy even more .

i keep changing the direction of how the story goes, i dont even know anymore 🙂🔫  hope you enjoyed this chapter!

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