𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃 | 𝙰 𝙺𝚒𝚖 𝚃𝚊𝚎𝚑𝚢𝚞𝚗𝚐 𝙵𝙵 (𝖔𝖓𝖌𝖔𝖎𝖓𝖌)

Dear Taehyung ♡

A/N: [Not an update]

Dt: 30/12/2020.

it's my real, raw and most heartfelt emotions for my baby, Taehyung ♡
it's his birthday.. here I will also describe how I met him and BTS.

You guys can skip this chap and read next one!!
If you're reading this, thank you so much. It means a lot to me!!♥️

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To my love,

happy Happy HAPPY birthday. On this beautiful day, I wish you all the beautiful and best things only. You're loved by billions, just so you know. You're my whole world and I can legitly give up my whole existence just for your sake. I mean it.

I was wondering what to gift you.. but then I realized you're a gift yourself to this world.
If it was in my power, I would give you all the stars and moon, all the goodness, a world filled with no pain.. I wish I could somehow tell you how much you mean to us as no words could ever justify it, but I know you can feel it already. You deserve everything tae, never ever ever doubt yourself and your abilities. I pray for your health and your heart❤️
I beg for the beautiful smile never leaving your lips in trade of all my smiles, my happiness.
I'll pray for your wellness and happiness even if that would fill my life full of pains.
Even if there is slightest pain in your part, may god give that pain to me.
I will bear everything for you.

To the one..
who's a disguised angel, the most handsome,
whose heart is as vast as the whole universe,
whose eyes is as deep as the ocean and at the same time as dazzling as 1000 constellations.
whose warmness melts my blue and grey,
whose smile can turn any pain into bliss,
whose whole aura throws royalty,
who has won millions and millions of hearts just by looking at them,
who's as innocent and adorable as a little child,
who's as lovable as a spring day
who's cuter than puppy and hotter than the fire,
whose holy vocals are like warm hug to your cold meaningless.

To the one,
who can turn from being adorable to sexy in matter of seconds
who isn't afraid to be himself at any given time,
who's the kindest and sweetest and most considerate person in this whole world,
who's the most beautiful flower spreading most addicting scent in the world,
who has unique trait of having single and double eye lids on other,
who can comfort you in your most painful times/hardships merely by his warm loving words,

whose existence is godly itself ,
who's himself a Miracle and the Magic...

I promise I'll love you not only in the moments when you shine and feel as if you are enough
but I'll love you even in the darkest moments when you try to shut everyone out because you feel as if you don't deserve to be loved.
I promise!

I still remember the day when I saw you for the first time, I saw you first time smiling.
When I saw your sparkling eyes.
I still remember when you touched my heart with your purity and innocence.
I still remember the first time I heard you singing
I still remember the first time I saw you crying
I still remember when I fell in love with you..
It was like I was fated to meet you and a magnificently perfect day.

It was raining outside, more like rain shower..
Small raindrops was wetting my heart.
I was never really a fan of rain shower
And I was not in best of the phase of my life either..
You know the phase when you don't like anything?? You don't want to talk to anyone?? You shut every doors of your mind and heart just so that no one can ever come in again?? That was what I felt, EMPTY.

Series of sleepless nights,
Faking smiles in front of everyone,
Crying to sleep became a ritual, a habit.
Heart full of miseries and pain.
The phase where I didn't know where I was going, what I was doing. I l felt numb.
Nothing can make me happy and nothing could comfort me.
The phase where I was a living dead, where I was breathing but not living.
The phase when I wanted someone to come and pull me out from this deep abyss but no one could hear me and I couldn't scream for help either.
I wanted to reach out but not one word could come out of my throat.
The phase where I was afraid that I would be misunderstood and misjudged.

That's when you entered my lifeless life, You saved me.
MY COCO.
And changed my whole life for good.

That day, something was different..
I didn't know what..
I was sitting on the porch, sipping the most amazing coffee that I made for myself..
I was watching some random IG videos when I first saw you, your goddamn smile which made my heart skip a beat. The emptiness my heart was feeling a moment ago, was now feeling warmth from something or should I say someone. I stared at you for a while and
Ofc me being me!!!!!!!!
I ignored it and scrolled away, shutting all the doors again. Subconsciously I was still thinking about that smile, that cute boxy smile.. I tried to distract myself ISTG!!
I felt restless but i had no reason to..
Night fell and truly since I saw your picture I couldn't stop thinking about you.. after hours of fighting with myself,
I ended up searching for that video once again. I FOUND YOU AGAIN. That's when my restless heart found peace. The warmth I felt when I saw you for the first time, once again was felt in my heart.
Then I realized that I have fallen for that smile.. Not even knowing your name and who you were,

I fell in love. Instantly.

Like I knew you from ages and this was bound to happen.
That's when all of this started..
Then I searched for you and finally found your name (it was pretty hard as I didn't know anything about you)

'KIM TAEHYUNG', i murmured looking at your pic and smiled.

I didn't sleep that night at all.
I smiled after what felt like ages.
Then I spent days to know more about you and
that's how I found BTS.

It's been more than 3 years now, that you're in my life..
and honestly I can't think of a life without you in it.. It's crazy, isn't it??
Falling for someone this hard when you haven't meet them in person??
I am falling tae, each and every day, every minute and in every fraction of second.
There won't be a single micro second when you're not in my mind. Yes, even in my sleep.

I LOVE YOU COCO, not because you're KIM TAEHYUNG, but because you made me who I am today.
For making me, ME.
For making me a better person, a better version of myself.
I love you because you loved me when even I didn't love myself. You loved me when I was in the darkest of the abyss with zero light around me, then there were you being my eternal light, shining upon me.. showing and leading me to the right path from my almost death bed.

Please find someone who really, really loves and adores you like you're the only one.
Because there's no other KIM TAEHYUNG in this entire kosmos, let alone world.
Please find someone who looks after you and makes you smile crazily. I wish you could find someone who can love you selflessly and for eternity and beyond. Who can make you smile on your worst days and can comfort you on the days when you feel low. Your happiness is all that matters to me!!

Just know that..
I am always here for you.. I'll always be here with you, no matter how many years goes by.. You'll find me right here, still this madly in love with you.
Please be happy, because it makes me happy too, it comforts me on my worst days.
I PURPLE YOU, COCO.
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN LOVE.

i love you, i sincerely do.

- Yours, Riia♡

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Cupcakes,

Since it's our winter bear's birthday and most importantly, this story is about him,

I'm updating early. Ofcourse I had to update!!
It's a present from COCO and Sugar

Please enjoy the update
Happy Taehyung day y'all.💜🥺

(Sorry, if this letter bored you. My apologies. But I wanted to write it out here, so that even you people could know how much he means to me.)

Thank you for always being here.
I purple you all.

Don't forget to read the update!!!