Seduce Me {GNCD (Golden Child) Joochan}

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"Rosa, wait!' I heard behind me as I was stepping away from him quickly, but gently. I didn't want to hurt him anymore. He was my best friend. What in the world made me think that it could ever work in the first place? 

I ran out of the street towards my favorite pet store and went to sit down on the bench and cried. I was such a fool, such an idiot. It was my fault Jibeom got hurt all along. Just like my friends.. If Joochan didn't... 

Joochan. It all started with him. The fights, the heartache, everything. It was his fault. I started crying when I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder. "Please don't cry," I heard someone say as they sat beside me. At this point I really didn't care who it was, because I just wanted to cry for a while. "Did someone hurt you?" I then recognized the voice and jumped up. 

"You," I muttered as I stared blankly into Joochans eyes. Why was he here? What gave him the right to comfort me like that? "You hurt me. And everyone around me. I just," I paused because tears started falling again and he just stared at me with open eyes. "I what?" He asked as he stood up,  a worried expression on his face. "I just wanted to be with the person I like, and you screwed that up," I cried and walked away, but he grabbed my wrist to stop me. "You... like someone?" he asked and the harsh look in his face had almost completely dissapeard. His eyes were big, desperate and looking horrified. I would almost believe it hurt him.

"yes, I like Jibeom, and you ruined it for me, because he liked me too," I pulled away my arm and he wanted to stop me again but I ran away, far away over the streets until I had reached the park near my house. This day had turned into a mess. How fun it started, how sad it ended. I sat down on a bench again and stared into the far distance, until I heard my phone ringing. I looked but then immediately pressed 'decline'. Why was he calling me? 

I stood up and decided to go home. At home I could just distract myself with other things, because I didn't want to think about Joochan or Jibeom anymore. I opened the front door and went inside, to be met with my mother who was at home. She greeted me and continued her work, so I just went upstairs and sat down on my matress. Again, my phone started ringing but I ignored it. Why was he calling me so often?

I sighed and then saw he had recorded a message. I was doubting whether I should listen to it or not, but I decided to listen to it. 

"I know I just saw you, but I just wanted to apologize. I care for you most in the world and if you want to be with him, then I will let you. Just, just be happy," I then heard a soft sniffle and then the audio stopped. I stared at my phone. The way he spoke seemed so different from how he usually spoke. Was he really a badboy? Or was it an act to break my heart?

I sat down on my bed and looked at the pen he gave me. Why was my life so messed up right now? I started to wonder about my feelings again. Why was Joochan being so confusing? It felt like he was hiding something. But somehow I had the idea that it wasn't a bad thing. 

WIth deep thoughts I fell asleep, again, dreaming something familliar.

'Smile forever, because then I will too.' I found a note on my locker and smiled at it. I didn't know this person, yet he made me smile everytime I found the note. I looked around and noticed someone staring at me, then quickly turning around. I then realized that he looked awfully familliar. 

The brown hair, the painful look in his eyes... It was Jibeom.