Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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I'm in my dreamland again.

"Jungkook! I'm back. Please show up!" I shouted while sobbing. "Please.." I'm holding my phone with me. I fall onto my knees, still waiting for him to show up. I don't have the energy to find him anymore because of too much crying.

"Why are you crying, Cupcake?" I stop when I heard his voice at my back. I stand up and turn around to see him. My eyes began to tear up again, when I saw him.

I immediately hugged him and cried on his shirt again.

"Hey, what's wrong?" His simple question makes it meaningful because of his comforting voice. "You're real right? Please tell me, that you are." I closed my eyes in anticipation. It took him a minute to answer.

"Of course I'm real..." I opened my eyes and looked at him. He wiped my tears. "Shh, stop crying. What happened?" He asked calmly.

"When I woke up, I checked my phone to see our pictures. But they disappeared. I tried to show it to them and explain, but they said that I'm only dreaming and having a nightmare. They even call my doctor to check on me. They see me as a weird person right now." I looked down. But he hold my chin up.

"Those are only our pictures. As long as you keep our memories together in your heart, picture will just be useless." He genuinely stated. "And, if they see you as a weird person. I still see you as a cute lil cupcake who always pick a fight with me." He said, showing his signature bunny smile in front of my eyes.

I heard my heartbeat again, beating like there's no tomorrow.

I punch him lightly, but he pull my arms to hug me. "I can be your punching bag when you're angry. Can also be your pillow when you wanna cry. I can be your pill just to make you happy. And I can be Jeon Jungkook who'll stop you from living your life in your dreams, but help you live like a normal teenager like what you wanna be." I started crying again in his shoulder.

He's saying it again! Is he giving me a warning that I shouldn't sleep too much and don't lucid dream anymore?

"Here is where I can live a normal life as a teenager, Jungkook." I murmured. "But this isn't the real world."

"Do you want me to live in the real world that only made me sick of the cruelness of it?" I asked him and pulled out from hugging him. "But that's where you can live, not here."

I walked towards the bench and took a sit. He followed me and take his seat beside me as what we usually do. I opened the gallery on my phone. I was shocked to see our pictures back.

"Kook! They're back!" I happily said. "So it only exist here?" He asked. "I guess so.." I changed my lock screen wallpaper to our picture altogether. While I change my home screen to my picture with Jungkook where I found it hella cute.

"Oh-" he saw it.

I smiled just by looking at my frowning face, then my eyes shifted to him. His eyes are looking at me with his bunny smile. "It's just so cute..." I said.

"Good to know that you find it cute."

"Jungkook-ssi... Remember before I wake up? You called my name. Why is that?" That's when he held my hands while looking at me.

"Uh, just wanna ask something that time. But nevermind." He smiled. "Eh? Come on tell me! Before I wake up again." I saw them injecting me with something, that's why I fell asleep for the second time around. He sighed before talking.

"Why didn't you remove your hand from mine?" Pfft.

"Eh? Seriously? That question?" I'm about to laugh but he's throwing me a serious look. "Maybe because you're holding it too tight?"

"Really? But you can still force yourself to pull it."

That was my biggest question, why did I stay that way holding his hand? Why didn't I pull my hand out? Why did I let myself hold his hand for that long? 

"Uh- it's because they want us to hold hands so yea! Enough with that choosy guy."

"I knew it was just nothing for you.." He whispered. I scrunched my eyebrows, I don't get him. Why is he talking to himself?

"Wait! One more thing..." I said and pretended to cough. "Huh?"

"What do you fear the most? You know, I've always been wanting to ask you this but-"

"When you're about to wake up." He gave me an honest answer by cutting me off. "Uh... yea." I laughed awkwardly. "You?" He asked back. I looked at the river in front of us. "When the day comes... where I can't see you in my dreams anymore..." I looked down on my feet swaying with the grass. He stayed quiet and waiting for me to speak.

"You know, I don't feel any tension between Taehyung and I anymore." I opened up. "Why tho?"

"Do you know where I feel that? Between him and his ex." I can't cry. I don't know why. I feel pain, but no tears left in my eyes. "How can you say so?"

"I saw him one time, looking at my best friend. The way he looks at her is different compared to how he looks at me. They look at each other so deep, and I can even drown. There's desire in their eyes, I don't want to judge. But that's what my brain and my heart telling me." I turn to him and tap his hand. "So thank you, when I'm in pain you're always there for me to lean onto. Thank you, Kook."

"You know that I can't reject someone like you. And the same thing for me, loneliness was able to leave me alone the day you showed up in my life." He smiled at me and hug me so tight. I can feel his sincerity with his tight hug.

That's when the time, I felt his tears. I heard him crying in my shoulders. "Hey, are you crying?" I pat his back. I guess.. this is my first time seeing him like this or what?

"I can't just imagine what will my life be if I didn't encounter you. You gave hope to my hopeless life." With that, my heart starts to bloom. Or did it already bloom the moment I met him? "Awe-" his hug tighten even more and his cry still continues. "Thank you for letting me stay here with you, Rosé." He said between sobs.

"Jungkook-ssi.. stop crying." It makes me wanna cry too. He looks awfully handsome even when he cries.

I spend my time in my dream, consoling him. Then after that, I just knew that I gain my consciousness.