Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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I opened my eyes while gasping for air. The heck!

I was just catching Jungkook to punch him when I woke up. I feel so tired because of him!

"Did you have a nightmare again sweetie?" My mom is preparing my breakfast. I look at the clock, it's already 9:30 in the morning. "No mom. It wasn't a nightmare." Mom, just so you know... I was running so fast just to catch Jungkook up because I wanna teach him a lesson so badly. I feel like I'm tired although I only ran in my dream.

"Alright, go eat your breakfast. What are you planning to do today? I'm off to my work. Taehyung have an important event in his school to attend on so he can't go here yet." So, I'm alone again...

"Uh maybe I'll just sleep Mom." I answered her and started eating the food she prepared. "Are you sure you'll be okay? I'll try to be back here early if I can sweetie."

"I'll be okay Mom. I'm always fine, don't worry about me." I forced a smile. Then I remembered my friends I left there. Maybe they're waiting for me. I eat my breakfast faster. "Yah eat slowly. You'll choke on your food. I'll go ahead now Chae." Mom kissed my forehead and went outside the room. I let out a deep sigh and finish my food.

I'll just go back to sleep a little later.

Well, if you're gonna ask me... I'm starting to like staying in my dream more often. Look, I've met new lucid dreamers. And I'm so happy because I was able to be friends with them and do the things I badly want. My dreams are slowly coming true in my dreams too. Weird :/

I closed my eyes again, I'm feeling sleepy because I felt a little tired when I woke up. And when I'm bored, I started to feel sleepy so yea-

I am in my dreamland again. I was automatically back to my dream even though I left Jisoo eonni's dream.

"Cupcake!" Jungkook ran towards me smiling widely. "Cupcake? what the fu-"

"You're back already. I'm happy." I stopped from cursing and look at him. I remember that it always turns black when I'm sleeping. Why is he here already?

"Why are you here already?" I asked coldly. "I was just running away from you but when I look at my back you're not around anymore. So I asked Jennie and Jisoo, they said that maybe you already woke up. So they already went to wake up also and I came back to your dream again." This is...

This is what I don't want. He's alone again? So when I woke up, the girls also woke up? He's definitely alone again and again unless I'm staying with him.

"Why? You should stay to others' dream. You know that it's dark here and you'll keep on staying here."

"I came back to your dream because-" he stopped. "Because?"

"I feel like I'm home. Your dream is my home Rosie." My cold eyes turned soft. Here's his only home he thinks of... It makes my heart melt so suddenly. "You treat my dream as your home? Even though it's dark?"

"Yes no matter how dark it is. Still, this is your dream." He smiled. I walked to my bench and take a seat. He only follows me and sat beside me. "I'm gonna be staying here with you all day." I uttered. "That's great. But I don't think it will help you get better." He only looked at me but I looked at the river. The sun shines so brightly.

"Mom is at work. Tae have an important event. Lisa is busy with her study and taking care of her siblings. I'm alone, I can't go study. So this is where I can feel happiness. No one have time for me." They get bored, because I only sleep. They get tired, because cancer is a hard disease to deal with. My doctor rarely check on me because she have a lots of patient who are in critical condition than me. Since I'm in stage 1, it's not that bad. They said that medications will help to treat this. But I don't see any improvement...

"I always have time for you. I'll always make time for you if you want to." He shyly stated and my heart wants to burst in pain. Jungkook can make time for me, while he's the one who doesn't have time to make himself happy.

"Jeon Jungkook... why do you always makes me feel this way?" I turned my head on him with my misty eyes. "Why? Did I do something wrong?"

"No. You always makes my heart beats in pain. You are so brave Kook. And I envy you." I smiled. "I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. What do you want to do? I'll make you happy, you look so sad." I can see his concern in his eyes.

"Kookie can I. . . hug you?" I am just forcing myself not to cry in front of him. "Y-yeah." I went closer to hug him tight. That's when my tears started falling. I cried silently, because I don't want him to see me crying. "Thank you Jungkook-ssi. You're always there for me when my family don't."

"Nothing to worry about Rosé." He pats my back. "Jungkook-ssi, do you think I'll survive?" I asked and pulled out from our hug. "Yes of course. Yours is not that severe. They can still treat you." He reassure me but it's not helping. "But I see no changes. I am not improving." I shake my head.

"You'll see that soon if you follow your medications consistently. And stop doing your bad habits." He put a thumbs up. "How about you? When will you wake up?" I can't help but to ask. "I.... I don't k-know. I'm not sure if I will ever wake up."

"I have a favor to ask..." I said. "What's that?"

"Let's survive together."

"Rosé, that's hard. I don't think I wil-"

"Yes you will. If you keep saying that you can't, then that will literally happen. Jungkook-ah, trust yourself enough."

"A-alright..."

That time, I see fear in his eyes. Is he afraid that he will not survive in this? Yes he can, he'll survive from fucking brain tumor he have rn. Why is he so confident that he'll not? What is he so afraid of? I'll make him believe and trust himself. He's so brave at all cost but I was wrong. Not just a choosy guy, but also a coward one when it comes to his disease.