Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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I woke up breathing heavily. "Oh Chaeyoung-ah, what's wrong?" Lisa was about to go outside when she saw me woke up. "I'm okay, just a nightmare."

"Aigoo, you'll keep having a nightmare if you just sleep everytime-- wait, what's wrong with your eyes? Did you cry?" Uh oh.

"No I'm not! This is just my eyes every time I woke up."

"No you're not. Your eyes are not like that earlier. You just slept for 10 minutes." Crap.

"Alright, I cried because of a nightmare. Happy?"

"Not convinced, but much better. By the way, I have to go. My siblings are calling for me." She pecked on my cheeks. "Okay... Bye bye Lisa. Thanks for the research." I waved my hand. "Yah, don't sleep too much! Bye gotta go!"

I let out a deep sigh, when she stepped out of my room.

I'm in my deep thoughts right now...

How could you shout at me just like that Jungkook-ssi? 

He literally emphasized the word dying? He really want that he's dying? Huh! I'm not going to sleep for today. I don't want to see him for now. I can't... I'm too embarrassed.

I checked the research papers that Lisa gave me.

When I'm reading those infos, my heart is hurting. I've never encounter someone that has this kind of illness. Jungkook is also a friend to me even tho we just met each other recently.

Brain Tumor is really a dangerous one. Some of them are not cancerous, but it says here that majority of the people who had this kind of tumor didn't survive because they can just see the symptoms when it's already getting bad.

His illness is much worser than mine. I can't help but to cry again. I can't resist myself and I keep showing my affection to him. I don't know why I care for that choosy guy. Tsk!

I stand up to get a food inside the fridge. I bet, mom is buying me some clothes and stuffs again. Aish~

But something's weird. Whenever I woke up, I feel like his face is so vague for me. I can remember some parts of his face before I wake up. But mostly, I can't remember his face at all. Maybe I should stay close to him? Psh, he's still angry at me.

I don't even know how to face him. So I'm just going to entertain myself, not to be sleepy.

***

Time check, it's already 10:00 pm in the evening. A while ago, I was so sleepy but I asked my mom if we have some coffee. I drank 2 cups of coffee and yea, it worked. Until now, I'm awake.

I just watched Netflix the whole day.

"Sweetie, why aren't you sleeping? Did your mind changed? You said sleeping makes you happy?" Mom asked and she's ready to sleep at the couch.

"Not now Mom. I'm watching my favorite drama."

"Since when did you liked watching dramas? You just started watching it only this morning." She shakes her head and put on her blanket. "Goodnight sweetheart."

"Goodnight Mom." I said, still paying attention to the drama I'm watching.

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"No Chaeng, you're not sleeping today alright? Remember?" I pat my cheeks and continue watching...

***

I saw my favorite bench. My place is too quiet and no one is here. Even the imaginary people who stays here. Shiz, coffee is not the best at all. And watching Netflix made it worser. I didn't know that I'm already sleeping.

Where is he?

Where did he go?

Did he already leave my dream?

Or he already change his mind and went to others dream?

No way... he said he'll stay here. 

"Jeon Jungkook-ssi?" I called out for his name. "Hey, I'm sorry." I said while walking around to find him. I just noticed that, as time passes by, he's really hard to find whenever I came back to my dreamland.

"Look, sorry for being stubborn. I'll stop bringing that topic up." I added.

"And I'll never call you 'choosy guy' again. Just forgive me and come out from where you are right now..." I continue talking to the air while still finding a clue on where could he be.

"Yow? Where are you? Are you sleeping by any chan--"

"R-rosé." I heard a voice from somewhere. "Yah! Jungkook-ssi? Is that you?" I started looking around. I can't spot him. "Hey!"

"I'm h-here.." I heard him again. His voice cracks, where is he?! I'm starting to worry. "Where? I can't see you!" I shouted. "To your left.." He uttered and immediately turned to my left if he's really there.

I saw him at the corner of a small room. He's there sitting, looking so poor. I ran towards him and checked on him.

"Yah what happened?!" I touched his neck and forehead. But he's not sick. "Jungkook-ssi!"

"I'm o-okay now..." He hold my hand. "You're not even cold. What's wrong?" I asked him and helped him stand up. "You're here now, so I'm fine already. Don't worry." He smiled.

I helped him walked until we reached our favorite spot. I let him cool down and refresh for a while.

"I thought you're not coming back..." He said between his deep breathe. "What happened to you? I don't actually plan to go back here because you're still angry at me."

"I'm sorry for shouting at you. I just want the best for your health. I don't want you to be like me." He reasoned out. "You're not mad because of the topic?"

"I'm not mad because of that. I'm mad because of your stubbornness. What if your health might get worst?" I felt a sudden softness in my heart. "I'm just stubborn because I don't want someone stopping me to do those things I'm not able to do in the real world." I smiled at him, but he still looks so tired.

"It's not that I'm stopping you but..."

"I understand. You're just concerned. So tell me, what happened to you out there?" I changed the topic because he's avoiding one question again.

"Do you want to go to other dreams?" But sadly, he changed the topic too. "Let's try, that would be great." We stand up and started wandering around.

While we're walking, I was just staring at him. That's when I have a doubt that he's hiding something from me.