Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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Lisa came back the other day. I asked her to come back for the informations she have gathered about Brain Tumor.

"How's your sleep? How many hours do you sleep a day Chaeng?"

"Uhm... I guess it's 18-20 hrs. Not sure though." I shrugged. "What the hell Chae. That's too much, it's not better. Auntie! Chaeng has been sleeping all day." She even tell it to Mom.

"Aigoo Lisa-ssi, I got nothing to do. She's too stubborn. She said that sleeping makes her happy and it helps her recover faster so I'm letting her. She only wakes up to eat, drink medicine and drawing. I don't know with that kid." My mom butted in our conversation.

"Speechless Chaeyoung-ah. How does sleeping makes you happy?" She asked shaking her head. "It makes me happy, periodt. No more questions." I rolled my eyes.

"Here's your favor." She put the papers above my pillow that's resting on my legs. "Ooh, it's a lot huh. Thankyou Lalisa." I flying kissed her.

"Why do you want those infos about Brain Tumor? That's not the illness that you have." Aish, she's asking again. I said no more questions. "Auntie, what's wrong with your daughter lately? She's weird." Mom laughed.

"I don't also know with this girl. Sweetie, what's with Brain Tumor? Why are you so bothered about that?" Mom asked while arranging my stuffs.

"You'll not understand it Mom. It's hard to explain so don't ask about it because it'll just confuse you guys. Yah Lisa-ssi, I'm lazy to read all of these. Maybe later." I set aside the papers in the drawer. "Could you tell me some key points there? Is brain tumor fatal?"

"What? So what's the purpose of those research papers I did if you're just gonna ask me to summarize it?"

"Just do it Lisa. Remember, this is my favor. My FIRST favor." I emphasized. She let out a sigh.

"Hmm, some cases of brain tumor are benign but there are also cases which are malignant. There are different types of brain tumor. Grade I brain tumors can be cured if they are completely removed by surgery. But Grade II tumor cells grow and spread more slowly than grade III and IV tumor cells."

Shit. 

"Is it curable? How about the survival rates?"

"Based from my research, survival rates are really difficult to predict because brain tumors are uncommon and there are many different types. Maybe around 15 out of every 100 people with a cancerous brain tumor only have the will to survive for 10 years or more after being diagnosed."

No... I hope his tumor is benign. Shit, I wanna cry. Help...

"O...kay. L-let me sleep for a while okay?" I stuttered while I started to make myself sleepy even though it's been just an hour after I woke up. "Hey, you're gonna sleep again? Yah!" I didn't listen and close my eyes.

***

"Jeon Jungkook?" My first attempt to call him.

"Yah Jungkook-ssi.." Second try.

"Choosy guy? Yah where are you?!" I almost shouted but I can't see him. I wander around to look for him, but there is no choosy guy around!

I checked the bathroom we've been to, but he's not there. I didn't see him at the bench. I also didn't see him at the amusement park. Aish, where could he be? He's making me anxious!

"Jeon Jungkook!" I screamed, I guess this is better. He might show up in front of me if ever he heard my voice-

"Rosé, are you calling me?" He showed behind me so I turn around to see him. "What happened to you? Where were you?" I asked. He's sweating, and looks so pale...

"Uh, I'm okay. I was just walking around." He smiled. Hey, that's a forced smile eh? "Why are you sweating?"

"It's hot in here you know?" He walk towards our favorite spot and take a seat on my bench. "Why do you look so pale?" I asked one more time. "Me? Maybe I lack blood? HAHA no way." He joked but that is NOT funny. "Jeon Jungkoon. You're lying." I looked at him, poker faced.

"I am not Rosé. Why are you sleeping again? It's not so good if you only sleep. You'll be just like me."

"Exactly.." I played with my fingers.

"What-"

"That's exactly what I want. So that I'll spend my everyday here. Not in there, full of pain."

"Rosé-ssi, that's not right-"

"For me, it's right. Because it makes me happy."

"Aish, you're too stubborn-"

"Jungkook-ssi..." I cut him off again. "Hmm?" He turned to look at me. "How bad is your tumor? Did it already passed Grade I?"

"Why are you asking that suddenly?" He moved away from me a bit. So I move closer to him. "I'm asking, just answer." I coldly stated.

"Uh, it already passed Grade I. I told you before, my chance to survive was very low. I'm just counting the days..."

"No." I avoided his look.

"What?"

"That's a no no. You'll survive Jungkook-ah."

"Rosé. I'm sorry but please stop bringing that topic up." He's now looking down but I can't resist myself. "I'll keep bringing this up if you keep on saying that you'll not survive in this. I know you can.."

In his case seems like fatal. He sounds like his illness is too dangerous and doesn't have the chance to survive.

But the thoughts of him, being able to survive is always at the back of my mind. I know, he'll survive in his illness.

"You have to wake up." He said. "I don't want to."

"Please, just wake up." He insisted. "No, I'm not waking up-"

"Why are you so stubborn?! That's not a good habit for a woman like you who's suffering from a Cancer. Can't you understand? I'm dying Rosé! Just wake up, have a good lifestyle. Don't be like me!" I was like stabbed by a bunch of dagger when he shouted at me like that.

It's my first time being shouted by a man. Especially by a person I was already attached to.

"Fine, if that's what you want." My voice cracked. I turn around and my tears start from falling as I walked away from him. I'm trying to wake myself, so I don't have to see him again. He shouted at me, I can't believe it.

How can he shout at a girl just like that? He's too angry that time, and I don't even know how to react. While he's shouting at me, I was just staring at his burning eyes.