Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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My purpose in this world is to breathe and live. But why do I feel the opposite? My dreamland is my only home, where I can breathe and live happily as I wish.

"I feel like I'm home. Your dream is my home Rosie." 

Like me, it's his home as well. I hope there is no limitation in this world when I'm sleeping.

"Is there something wrong?" Taehyung appeared in my sight. He's here already. He finally visits me, but that doesn't make me feel happy at all. "How's the event?" I asked him.

I just woke up.

"It was so tiring. Good thing, today's holiday. I'll stay here for a while to check on you."

"Are you still tired babe? It's okay, you can go home and take a rest." I smiled. "How about you? I'm not that tired. I'll accompany you here."

"I'm totally fine Taehyung-ah. I have a favor..."

"Alright, tell me." He went closer. "I want to sleep." I uttered. "Again? You just woke up babe. It's not good for your health anymore. Refrain from sleeping too much." His eyes became worried sick. "But-"

"Nah ah. Just tell me what do you wanna do aside from sleeping." He cuts me off. "Nothing, just wanna sleep Tae. Please.." I begged. A couple of minutes have passed since I left Jungkook there. I can't wait to come back, maybe he's waiting again.

He let out a deep sigh and look at me. "Fine, just eat your breakfast and medicine first." He prepared my breakfast that I gladly accepted. As long as it's made by him, I'll feel contented to his feelings for me.

"Will you be okay? Do you want me to call a nurse to check on you first?" He lastly asked once I finished my meal. "No need for that. I'm always okay babe, I'll be okay." I forced a smile.

The door opened and it reveals Lisa. Oof~ nice timing right?

"Chaeyoung-ah!" She stopped when she saw Taehyung beside me. "Oh Taehyung-ah..."

"I came here to visit Chae. But I guess I don't need to. Alright--"

"No, it's alright. Lalisa, you can stay here. I'll go sleep. Have fun with Tae." I smiled at the two of them and immediately forced myself to sleep. I can't stand this kind of situation.

Just let me go back to where I feel happiness. 

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I run towards the place I remembered where I saw Jungkook suffocating.

"Jungkook!" I saw him lying down covered with his sweat. "I'm here. Come on, stand up." I help him to stand up, but he's just too heavy. My energy can't pull him up like what I did when he collapsed. "Rosé, why did you come back this early? I told you not to be stubborn."

"I'm worried about you so I came back." He remain seated on the floor, so I sat down also facing him. "This will not help you to be healthy. I shouldn't have told you about my condition here." He looks away. "Why? You don't wanna see me anymore?"

"Of course not. I'm just concerned about your health-"

"Me too. I'm worried that something might happen to you while I'm not around. Understand my side too, I am okay. Let me stay here, look at you you're suffocating again. Isn't that worser than my situation?" I cut him off and scold him at my will.

He's already suffering from a disease. And even here in my dream, he suffers.

"Have you drink your medicine?" Changing the topic, after being scolded by a Cupcake. "You're weak Jungkook-ah. I thought you're not." I scoffed. "Answer my question."

"Yes, I took it earlier after eating. Happy?"

"Much better. Let's go." He stood up. "Wait, are you feeling better now?"

"Yes, you're here now. Let's go." He smiled. "Where are we going?" I followed him. "Where do you wanna go?" Aigoo, I'm the one who's following him while he don't even know where to go. "Babo. Jungkook-ah rest for a while. I don't want to go anywhere." I pouted at him and hit his arm.

Many of you will think that I have a boyfriend, but here I am flirting with him. I'm not, it's just that I'm happy every time he's with me.

"Alright I'll rest. Come with me." He held my hand and bring me to the bench. Should I call it 'our' bench? He sat me down the bench and he rested his head on my lap. "Yah, I'm not a pillow Jeon Jungkook."

"You said I should take a rest. Then I'm doing it. Stop complaining.." He closed his eyes while a smile arc in his red lips. Woah, how can he maintain that red lips? I always have a pale lips. I do not put lipsticks anyways. But his lips are just naturally red. Uwu, I wish to have one too.

"Don't look at me too much or else I'll melt here." He smirked while still pretending to be asleep. "Jungkook-ah, have you ever liked someone?" My mouth asked that, not me.

"I never had a girlfriend before. But I do like someone." I nodded at him even tho he can't see me. I guess he never had a girlfriend because of his disease. "How are you and you're boyfriend?" He asked me this time.

"Uh as usual, he's busy. He visits me but I'm not that happy at all. Perhaps I always have this mindset about my disease that's why it's not making me happy."

"But are you somehow happy when you're here?" He stared at my eyes. "Of course." I smiled. "With me?" He added. I hummed in response. "I'm glad." He said and closed his eyes again.

"Are you that happy to know that I'm happy when I'm with you?" I scoffed. I saw him smiled for a second before turning his face to normal expression. "You're right." Whut- he's honest. What a man indeed~

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"Taehyung and Lisa are together right now..." I murmured. I know he's asleep already because it's been a few minutes since he didn't talk. But I'll let myself talk even tho he's not listening.

"My boyfriend and my bestfriend are together. What a nice timing isn't it? I asked her to stay tho, it's a shame for me if I shoo her away just because my boyfriend is with me.

She once let him go for my sake. So I have to endure the pain everytime I let them be together. I couldn't do anything, because Lisa gave up on him for me. And now, they still have in contact. I can't stop them because of jealousy. I'll just feel guilty." I stared at the river.

I let out a deep sigh, "What should I do Jungkook-ah?" I closed my eyes and let my back rest on the bench. My legs will get numb because of the heaviness of his head.

"Stop hurting yourself Rosé." I opened my eyes in shocked when he speaks. He heard it, I thought he's sleeping so soundly. Ey! Best actor of the year eh? I can't with this guy.