Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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"Her vital signs are not normal. It's getting worser day by day." I heard a voice. And I'm sure that it's Ashley.

"As per the chart and records of her... Her illness is getting worse. It's in stage 2." My heart dropped after what she said. Is that gonna be a good or a bad news for me?

"Since I have a lot of patients to work on, I couldn't check on her regularly. So I only asked a nurse to go check on her, but every time she walks in her room, she always caught her sleeping." Was it my fault to sleep every minute?

"But I'll do my best to find a cure for her cancer. We're still working on the severely ones. I'll ask my friend to take over my job on checking on your daughter. She's also a doctor." I turn to look at them gathered around and discussing.

"Chae.."

Ashley went near me and held my hands. "I'm so sorry Rosé, but I'll try my best to solve this. You'll also have a new doctor." She smiled but her guilt is visible in it. "Am I gonna die? Just p-please tell it to me sooner, so I can prepare-"

"No. You're not gonna die." She coldly said. After that, she bowed to my mom and leave my room.

"Sweetie-"

"Mom, Lisa, I wanna talk to Tae for a while." I asked them to leave us two here for a minute. They only nodded and went outside the room.

I've decided.

"Babe, I have some important matters to talk about." I straightly look on the white comforter. "What is it? Is there any problem?" If a while ago, I can't cry. Now, I'm just holding my tears back.

"You know. . . I always think that you still have something for Lalisa." I didn't bother to look at him. I know he's just sitting, listening. "W-what?"

I take a deep sigh before telling him what I want to tell.

"Babe, iloveyousomuch. But. . .

B-but I have to let you go." Okay Rosé, you can still hold them back. "What? What kind of nonsense are you saying babe?"

"I guess you're not the right guy for me. It's okay if you and Lisa gets back together. I know that you still love my bestfriend." I smiled bitterly. "H-how about you? I also love you Chae-" I cut him off.

"But not like how much you love Lalisa. Your love for her is a lot bigger than your love for me. It's okay, I know you've been wanting to let go. And now, I'll initiate to let you go." No, you can still hold it. Don't let your tears flow.

"Chae it's not that I love her more than you..."

"Yes you do, I know that you were just being forced to love me back because you found out that I have cancer and I have feelings for you." He tries to look at me, but I keep on looking away. "And I know how it feels like to be in that situation right now. It hurts like hell, so I'm not gonna hurt you."

"You're right, it hurts and you're already hurting me. But don't worry someone will get rid of this pain I'm feeling." I smiled at the sudden thought of him. "Someone? Who? What do you mean? Did he visit you here?" He starts panicking.

"N-no, he's someone far away and hard to find unless-" That was close. "Unless what?"

"Nevermind it's nothing. Tae, I'm already inlove with someone, sorry for not telling it to you sooner. But, thankyou for staying by my side tho you don't really wanna be stuck here with me." That's when my eyes smeared with my tears. "Chae this is just too unfair."

"You're a good boyfriend after all Tae. And I'm so lucky to have you once. Right now, your Chae is finally letting you go. Sorry for all the trouble I've caused you. I love you." I heard him sob, so I wrap him in my arms. "Chae, you're so unfair." He uttered while crying. "I know I am. Even if we didn't break up, you gotta still see a dying Chae here lying in the bed. It was just useless." I comfort him, like what I did to Jungkook earlier.

"Life is unfair. . . for the both of us." I am pertaining to Jungkook and I. Both of us are suffering from a deathly illness. We can only spend our remaining time we have in our dreams. It sucks. "You're not gonna die. Stop saying that.." His sobs turn into whimpers.

"I'm sorry Taehyung-ah, but this is the end for us. I just realized that we're not for each other. Don't be stuck here with me anymore, coz I'm not yours to worry about." He pulled out from my hug and looked at me with those crying eyes. I only smiled at him.

"Chae, you're not okay. You're health is getting worse. Who'll take care of you if your Mom is not here? If Lisa is not available to go here?" He asked.

"Who'll take care of me if you're busy at school? And who'll take care of me if all of you are not available to be here?" I played with my hands feeling so sad.

"Chae-"

"Don't worry. It's Jungkook, who'll take care of me." I held his hands and nod at him to say that I'm gonna be okay. "J-jungkook? Who's t-that?"

"Uhm, should I say... the one who's always there for me whenever all of you weren't."

"I'm very sorry Chae for not taking care of you. I understand that you already have someone, it's also my fault that's why you felt that way." He apologized. "But we can still be best friends right?"

"O-of course. . ."

"But first, I should tell 'that' Jungkook not to make you cry-" he added but I cut him. "He's a wise person, Tae. And there's a 0% chance for you to tell him that."

He may be a choosy guy, but I know that he's a wise guy.

"Why? Where is he? Earlier, you said that he's far away and hard to find- unless? Is that what you're trying to hide from us Chae?"

"To tell you the truth, yes."

"When are you planning to tell it to us?"

"When I'm finally ready. For now, just keep it. I can't tell it to you yet. I'm sorry..." I saw that his a little bit dismayed. "It's fine. So. . . best friends? I love you, Chae." I felt his sincerity in his words, so I giggled. "Yes, best friends! I love you too, Tae."