Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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(7)

"Sweetie, Lisa-ssi said that she's on the way here." My mom said when I woke up. "Arasseo..." My voice is a bit hoarse every morning when I wake up.

I wonder if what's that pervert guy doing there in my dreams tsk! How dare he call me dirty minded?! Aigoo-

"You're best friend is here." Mom opened the door for Lisa. We had eye contact and I know that there's something she want to tell me. I already know that look...

"I'll leave you both here for a while." Mom went outside the room, leaving us two here.

"Chaeyoung-ah..." She called and sat beside the bed. "Why? What is it? Is there something wrong?"

"Chaeyoung-ah, Taehyung and I met yesterday." I became silent at the moment. "I didn't mean to tell you this to make you jealous. We just cleared things out between the two of us--"

"No, it's okay haha. It's not a big deal. You two can see each other anytime you want Lisa-ssi. Go on." I smiled.

"Chaeyoung-ah..."

"It's okay Lalisa. I'm okay." I put a thumbs up on her.

I'm just a third-wheel.

Lisa... she's Taehyung's ex. They broke up because of me. When Lisa knew about my feelings for Tae, she distanced herself from him that made Tae get confused. Once they found out that I have Cancer, they stopped dating. They did that for my sake. And made Taehyung... develop feelings for me.

It hurts to know that they only did that for my sake. That he only loved me back because he pity me, or isn't it? I guess that his feelings for me was just forced by Lalisa. The also reason why they act a bit awkward (especially Taehyung) around when the three of us are in the same room. Lisa and I are not awkward because we have talked about it. I accepted it a long time ago, but the pain is still here.

I love Taehyung for real, and he's also showing his love for me even though... it's forced.

"No you're not okay, look you're about to cry Chae, I'm sorry-"

"Don't say sorry. It's not your fault, just do me a favor instead." I sniffed. "Alright, what is it?"

"Could you do a research about Brain tumor for me?" I changed the topic, to prevent the pain. "For what? That's not your priority to focus on Chaeng, you should focus on how to recover." She said with an annoyed expression.

"아 왜~ just do it for me okeh? I don't have time to do it myself because I spend my whole day sleeping." (Ah why~)

"You're only sleeping the whole day? That will not make you feel better. You have to eat too and do something to gain your energy." She's scolding me again. "Aish, I'm not interested. Please do it for me. Alright, I'll go sleep again. I'm a bit sleepy." I smiled, hiding the pain.

"Yah! You just woke up! Why are you sleeping again?"

"Aish, come on! This is how I rest. Just let me be. Okay? Goodnight. Take care Lisa." I laid down my bed again and immediately drifted off to sleep.

I'm not having a problem when it comes to sleeping easily. Good thing I don't have insomnia.

I saw Jungkook-ssi sitting again in my bench while looking at the sky. I walked near him and sat beside him silently. "You just woke up right? Do you love staying here in your dreams with me?" He uttered.

I didn't say a word, I keep my mouth shut.

"Ooh, is this a miracle? You're not attacking me with your powerful mouth." He added, but I only looked at him. My tears are about to fall... I can still prevent them from falling right?

But no-

I hugged Jungkook-ssi tightly and cried on him hardly.

"Hey--- what's wrong?"

"I c-can't hide the pain..." I sobbed. "I j-just can't... prevent my tears from falling... It hurts Jungkook-ssi..." My cry sound like a baby. I felt his hand patting my back. "Shh, it's okay. You'll get over that pain. I'm here to comfort you." He said with his soft voice.

I just cried and cried until I'm tired of it and fixed my face. Jungkook's shirt was all wet because of my tears. "Oh no, I'm sorry for messing up your clothes. Let me buy you a new one, let's go." He stopped me and look straightly at my eyes.

"No. Just stay. Then tell me what's wrong, I'm here to listen." He smiled. "Jeon Jungkook, I can't talk about that now---"

"Yes you can. Let all the pain go, you'll feel better after this. Trust me." He nodded at me.

He's not only a pervert and choosy guy that I know. I just found out that he has this soft spot and caring attitude.