Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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Rosé's POV

I had a hard time breathing yesterday, because of too much crying. I couldn't scream that time because all of them will hear me. I wasn't able to release all the pain I have here in my heart.

I kept fighting my tears back, when I heard that his days our counted. Like, you know... I can't accept it. Fvcking shit right?

We just met recently, we just love each other, but why is this happening to us so sudden?

2 days before my operation. I'm preparing to get ready for it. My heart is telling me to give up. But my mind is saying the opposite.

What should I do?

"Rosé, we'll have to do your operation as soon as possible. There are no cures for any kinds of cancer, but there are treatments that may cure you." Hyeri explained to me my condition. "Others are treated for cancer and still die from it, although treatment may give them more time. We should've done the operation earlier before." She added. My mom are just here, listening.

I asked Lisa to tell Jungkook that I'll be visiting him whenever I can already face him. Not now, my eyes aren't okay yet.

"What will happen if I take the operation? Will I survive or nah?" I asked. "There's a possibility that you'll get better after that. But there's also a chance of-"

"I know. Chance of dying? Yes, I'm prepared, Hyeri eonni. Thanks for answering." They just stared at me, blankly. While it's visible in their eyes that they pity me. "Come on guys, don't be. I'm gonna be fine. Jungkook and I are gonna be fine." I smiled at them, but my mom shakes her head then leave my room.

A deep sigh left my mouth.

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"Be with me, until that heartbeat monitor stops."

"Be with me, until that heartbeat monitor stops."

"Be with me, until that heartbeat monitor stops."

Those phrases keep on flashing back in my mind.

"Of course, I'll be with you. Because that's what I'm supposed to do. To stay by your side." That night, I said that to him without crying. If I cry, I'll have a hard time breathing again.

Don't make it hard for you, Rosé.

It's just crazy, how the same person who made you so happy, can cause you so much pain. Yes, I love to sleep before, sleeping is the best until you wake up and feel pain again. But right now, all I could think of is him.

I don't wanna sleep anymore, knowing that I'm not gonna be able to see him again, once I woke up. I was once a Lucid Dreamer, but I'm gonna stop lucid dreaming. I want to stay with him, cherishing every moment we have left together.

I asked Ashley and Hyeri if we could go outside the hospital to catch some fresh air. I want to take him outside and have fun for his remaining days.

Good thing, they agreed. But we shouldn't take too long. I'm pushing the wheelchair where Jungkook is sitting. "Waaa, I love the air." I said and stopped.

"I love it too." He uttered, staring at the sky just like what he used to do in my dream before. This fvcking feels nostalgic. "Thank you, Rosé." I turn to him. "For what?"

"For being the reason why I woke up. It was always you, thankyou for being the last person to be with me until the day comes." I wanna cry again, but please not now. "You're always welcome, choosy guy." I smiled and stared at the sky as the sun goes down.