Lucid Dreamer | rosékook ✔

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Rosé

I felt bad for Taehyung-ah, after breaking up with him, I have already replaced him with the person I like. It's just that, Jungkook made me feel better and loved than what Tae did for me. I mean, I appreciate his effort but it feels like he's just near me but so far away.

Well, I already told Tae about Jungkook. So I'm somewhat relieved because I'm not hiding something from him anymore, except from my ability that I'm still hiding from them.

"Chaeyoung-ah..."

After our confession, I woke up because I felt that someone is waking me up from my sweet dream. Then I saw Lisa, sitting beside the bed. "Aish, not now~" I said with my hoarse voice. "I wake you up because it's important."

"What's the matter?" I sit up from lying down the bed. "Your new doctor is here, she's now talking to your mom. While you're sleeping earlier, she already checked on you." She holds my hand. "Why? Is there any problem?" I asked with my worried voice.

"As time passes by, your numbers are counted. You're cancer really worsen, due to sleeping too much. They recommend that you should refrain from sleeping for now, it may affect your health Chae." She starts crying.

"What?" What she said cannot process in my mind.

"What's happening to you, Chae? Do you really wanna die? You're making your health even worser. Please take care of yourself once. You even broke up with Tae. What seems to be the problem?" She continued.

"Lisa, someone's taking care of me. Don't worry-" she cuts me off.

"Jungkook? Tae mentioned to me about that Jungkook guy. Do you really think he's real? Chae, he is just in your imagination!"

She's being harsh...

"Lisa he's not in my imagination---"

"Yes, he is Chae! Why the heck did you waste my time? I even break up with him just for him to be with you because that's what you want." She said in tears. "Lalisa, at first I didn't tell you to break up with him just because of me. I let you be together, until now even if it hurts. And if I continue my relationship with him, I'll be hurt even more. Because... because I can feel it." I lowered my head to play with my fingers.

"What are you talking about?" Her brows furrowed.

"Your love for each other never fade. I guess, for Taehyung it stopped for a while just to love me. But I can still see the spark in your eyes when you look at each other. As if I can hear your heartbeats when the other is around. I know you still do, Lisa. Don't deny it, I know you." I uttered and she stopped from crying.

"Yes you know me, but as your best friend I know you too. You loved Tae so much, and I--" I cut her off. "You don't know me at all, Lisa." I look at her, but she shakes her head. "Goodness, Park Chaeyoung! Wake up! You're losing your mind, Jungkook is just your hallucination. Accept that."

"I am fully awake right now, what else do you want? You're not in my position to tell me that I'm just hallucinating and he's just in my imagination." I said, coldly.

"What the f--"

"And please, leave me for a while. I think you're being harsh on me. Your words have hurt me enough, please leave." I closed my eyes, she didn't respond and immediately leave the room.

I can't stand her, that's sometimes the problem with her. She's not aware that her words are already hurting someone, without her even realizing it.

***

I laid down my bed all day, I can't sleep because they're injecting me something that prevents me from sleeping. And my new doctor always bring me a coffee, this time, the one in charge of me are doing her best to check on me every time.

Sometimes, if I have the chance, I'll just throw the coffee in the sink but most of the nurse are here to stay with me. Gosh! I'm old enough, let me handle myself.

How about him? Without me? He'll suffocate again! The inhaler that I gave him is not enough. My presence is more than enough for him to be okay.

When will I got the chance to sleep again?

I badly wanna see you again choosy guy...

Due to boredom, I tried my painting skills that he taught me before. My doctor is here, patiently checking my results. But I forgot that I don't have painting materials, only a pen and a paper.

I grab the pen and paper to draw something.

I want to draw him. I don't wanna forget him...

I started to draw a pattern for my drawing. Minutes have passed, and I felt Hyeri, come near me. "Waaah, you're good at drawing." She compliment. "Do you think he'll like it?" I asked, polishing my artwork. "Of course, why not? It's detailed. Who is he by the way?"

"He's someone I love." I smiled lightly, because I remembered that I have to sleep but I can't. "Ooh, mind introducing him to me?" She teased while nudging me lightly. "That's impossible, unless you let me sleep."

"Aigoo, you just wanna sleep don't you?"

"Please, let me sleep." I pleaded, but she just shakes her head. I heavily sighed and stared at the masterpiece I did.

It was him, sitting at the bench, while staring at the sky.

I hope I still have the chance to let him see this, before... I go. Hang in there, Jungkook-ssi.