LA Runaways

8. The Cost of Love

"Oh shit guys it's y/n" Vince said with a smile
The boys sat there silent for a second staring at you, you tried to ignore them and kept dancing. Nikki had his head down trying not to make eye contact with me, he then looked up and said
"Can we talk please?" he asked
"If you want a dance in a private room it's $20 plus tips" you stated
"Great let's go" he said with no emotion
you walked him into a private room

"So what do you want talk about?" you asked
"Us and what happened" he said
"I thought there was no us and that's why you hooked up with that blond bimbo" you stated
"Look I know I fucked up but I care about you y/n" he said
"Nikki I" you didn't really know what to say
"What" he replied
"I don't know" you yelled
He scoffed
"And why are you working here, what happened to your other job?" he asked
"This pays more and people appreciate me here" you stated
"Well I don't like the thought of it, all these guys staring at you" he replied
"Well I need this job so I can afford my own place" you said
"Just come back and live with me" he whined
"I can't" you replied
"Why?" he asked
"Because Nikki, it smells like you there, your stuff is there, and I can't have it, I want you, I want you to myself, and that's obviously something you can't handle." you replied in a shaky voice
"Now is there anything else you need, cause I need to get back to work." you stated
"Y/N i'll try, I want to be with you, just please move back in" he said trying to pull you close
"I gotta go" you said pulling away from him

You knew you weren't supposed to forgive him, but he really seemed like he cared and you briefly knew about his past, it made you feel for him, he needed someone to help him realize what love can be and that not everything ends badly. But we're you willing to help him at the cost of your heart.

You walked out and got back to work, you felt very conflicted since you felt bad for overstaying at Ambers, though you weren't sure if you could handle moving back in with the boys. Your dumbass decided to say fuck it and move back in with them, you really missed him and wanted to try and be with him.

After work you went back to Ambers to grab your stuff.
"What are you doing?" Amber asked
"Packing" you replied
"Why where are you going?"
"I'm moving back in with the guys, I know it's self destructive but I don't care." you stated
"Y/N you know you can still stay here, it's seriously no problem and what if he hurts you again" she said
"I just can't I feel bad Amber and I think he really cares about me and wants to make it work" you said
"Fine I guess I can't make you stay, I love you and hope he doesn't fuck you over again" she said with a smile
"Yeah well I guess we'll see" you said laughing
You hugged Amber goodbye and thanked her once again, you now headed over to the boy's apartment.

When you knocked on the door Nikki opened it up, he immediately grabbed you and pulled you into a kiss, it made you drop your bags but you didn't care, the kiss deepened and he grabbed your ass.
"So this is happening again" Mick said looking towards the doorway
You just looked at him and smiled

After settling back in you and the boys all had a drink and talked
"Y/N we got a record deal" Tommy said
"Holy shit are you serious!" you said
"Yeah we start recording tomorrow" Nikki said
"Oh my god that's amazing guys!" you said and then gave Nikki a kiss
"Can I come watch you record" you asked
"Maybe not the first day but definitely after we get started" Tommy said
"I'm so happy for you guys" you said smiling
Vince, Tommy and Nikki then toppled you in hugs

It was pretty late and you decided to go to bed, of course Nikki followed you, as soon as you both got in the room you immediately starting making out. His hands were all over you, he ripped of your clothes and it made you gasp, as the kissing went on you mumbled in his ear
"I missed you sixx"
"I bet I missed you more" he said throwing you onto the bed
You undid his pants and grabbed a condom, he put it on fast wanting to get in you, he trailed your body with kisses starting at your lips.
"Please I want you" you whined
You felt his cock brush against you. He came back up and inserted himself into you, you let out a moan, you felt his cock stretch the inside of your tight walls, you had forgotten how good his dick felt.
"Your so tight god..d" he moaned in your ear
He thrusted into you harder
"Let me ri..de you" you said
He flipped onto his back and you got on top of him
You started riding him, it felt amazing, he grabbed your breasts as you increased the pace.
"Fucc...kk y/n" he said
you moaned louder
"Im so closee Nikki" you said losing your breath
You both came at the same time, he slipped out of you and rolled over next to him. You let out a sigh and cuddled his arm.

You woke up the next morning laying next to Nikki, you didn't have to go into work till 6pm, one of the perks of being a stripper lol, the boys got up since they started recording today, I seriously couldn't believe it, I wondered if they were going to have a tour. You said bye and good luck to the boys as they left, you also kissed Nikki and left him wanting more.
Since the boys were off recording you had the day to yourself so you decided to do some writing, you put on your favorite Bowie record (Aladdin Sane) and plopped on the couch with your notebook,

The toughness to my unending softness
A striking example of masculinity
Firm in your verticality
and duality
Honestly if you weren't here
I don't know what things would look like
If i'm going to keep living the way that i'm living
I can't do it without you
My feet aren't on the ground
I need your body to stand on
Your name to define me
On top of being a woman
I'm scared
and
hopeful
Hopeful that you'll stay
Praying that you'll lay with me
- y/n
____________________________________ A/N - Yay your back with Nikki lol, I hope you guys like the story so far, i'm excited for the upcoming parts, I'm on a roll today so i'll probably upload another part later. Also THIS POEM ISNT MINE it's pieces I took from lana del reys poetry book, she writes about love a lot and I like it- Lana