LA Runaways

21. Pros And Cons

Look at his smile I cant

Nikki's POV
I drove home, and when I walked through the door their was a bunch of random people in my house doing drugs and random shit, I don't really care.
I walked up the stairs and saw Whisky sitting in front of the office doors that I kept locked.

I grabbed my keys out my pocket and unlocked the door, I went in and shut the door behind me so no idiots came in. It was a mess, I'm guessing when y/n was grabbing her stuff she shuffled through everything, I saw a stack of journals sitting on the desk, I picked one up and read an entry

September 17th, 1981
The toughness to my unending softness
A striking example of masculinity
Firm in your verticality
and duality
Honestly if you weren't here
I don't know what things would look like
If i'm going to keep living the way that i'm living
I can't do it without you

Reading that made me realize how much y/n cared about me and I feel like such a fuck up for hurting her, I need her.

Y/Ns POV

You drove over to Carries place to talk to her about tonights charades.

"Hey its me open up" you said knocking
"Hey come in, whats up" she replied opening the door

"Nikki kissed me" you said
"What!" she said
"It wasn't my fault he just grabbed me and kissed me" you stated
"Well did you kiss him back?" she asked
You stayed silent
"Y/N!"
"It was only for a second, then I pulled away" you said
"Ok just sit down and lets talk through this" she said

You sat down on the couch and threw a blanket around you.

"Ok so how did the night start?" she asked
"It was fine, of course Nikki was annoyed that I was there, so I just tried to hangout with Izzy" you said
"Well thats good, how's Izzy" she said
"I think he likes me, I don't know its weird" you said

"Thats good y/n, what are you talking about?" she asked
"Well I cant be with someone when I still love Nikki" you said
"Ew okay, anyways what happened after that?" she asked

"We did the interview and Nikki said some rude shit, and it pissed me off" you said
"Right, keep going" she said

"So then I said "Fuck you" and stormed out, he then followed me, pulled me towards him and kissed me, and then I yelled at him and we fought and I drove here, I think that about sums it up" you stated

"Why do you think he did that?" she asked
"I think he was jealous of me talking to Izzy" you said
"Now I know this isn't the right thing to say but I think he misses you" she said
"I know and of course I miss him but I just, I don't know what to do" you said
"Lets make a pros and cons list" she said
"Are you serious, your supposed to tell me to forget about him and go for Izzy" you said
"Ok I love you, but we both know if this was life or death you'd pick Nikki" she said
"You're right, god damn it" you said

"Ok lets start with pros" she said
"Alright well one he's hot, good in bed, can be sweet when he wants, talented, I know theres more just cant think right now" you said
"Right, okay now lets do the cons, I'll start, he's cheated on you twice" she said
"The first time doesn't even count, were weren't officially together" you said
"But you basically were" she said
"No we weren't" you said
"Ok fine" she said

"So other cons are, mostly just his drug problems, and lying about it"
"Thats a pretty serious con, that effected your relationship the most" she said
"Well what if I can help him, like tell him I'll only get back with him if he gets clean" you said
"You know he's not going to do that right" she said
"We don't know that" you said

After more arguments you and Carrie couldn't come to a conclusion of what to do. You drove home, when you got into your apartment you saw the red light on your answering machine blinking, you clicked to play back the message
"I miss you" You heard Nikkis voice say
How the hell did he get my number, you thought to yourself.

You then grabbed the cassette tape out of the machine and threw it away otherwise you would of probably listened to it on repeat.

June 24th, 1985

After work you went over to Izzys apartment, it reeked of cigarettes since he smoked inside so much but it didn't bother you that much, you gave him a hug and walked in,
"What a surprise" he said
"Yeah, just felt like seeing you" you said
"Oh really" he said
You pulled him into a kiss, it wasn't like kissing Nikki but it wasn't bad, he was actually a good kisser, the kissing turned into a heated make out, you both fell onto his bed, you almost fell on his guitar but he pushed it off the bed, his hands were all over your body, it was really hot.

He pulled your pants off and undid his, he wet your lips and put it in, you both let out a moan,
"Fuck" he said increasing his pace

He was on top of you and had his hands on your waist, it felt good but also wrong, all the sudden you heard someone knock on the front door,

"Did you hear that" you asked
"Oh shit, I forgot Tommy and Slash were coming over" he said and pulled out of you
"Shit" you said
"Tommy will tell Nikki that I was here" you said
"So, you guys broke up" he said
"Well it's complicated" you replied
"Okay just stay here, don't come out of the room" he said
You put your clothes on and sat there, this whole thing was a mistake.

You heard the front door open and over heard the conversation,
"Hey man, hope it's alright that Nikki came along" Tommy said trying to walk in
You have to be joking, you thought to yourself
"Uh can you guys hold on one second, I kinda have a girl over"
"Sweet dude" Tommy replied
"Who?" Slash asked
"No one, hold on" Izzy said shutting the door

"Nikki came with them" he said as he walked back into the bedroom
"Yeah I heard, maybe I can get out from the balcony" you said
"That's ridiculous y/n" he said
"Well" you said
The front door opened, you guessed they recognized your voice from the outside,
"What the fuck dude" Nikki said
"What man its not like your still together" Izzy said
"Doesn't mean you can fuck her" Nikki replied
"I wanted to sleep with him, so blame me" you said
"But he could've said no" Nikki said
"Im leaving" you say trying to walk through them to the door
Then Nikki punched Iz in the face like the jealous asshole he was.

You ran to your car crying, this was crazy, you can't believe Nikki punched him, you didn't punch that bitch Nicole.

You got home and flung onto the bed, you literally just fell asleep from the emotional exhaustion that you'd been experiencing.
A couple hours later you heard the phone ringing, you were too lazy to go answer it so you ignored it, but then it rang again, you got up and went to answer it,
"Hello?" you said
"Y/n its Nikki"
"I don't want to talk to you, bye" you said
"No wait seriously y/n" he said
"What, you want to apologize for causing a scene" you said
"Not really, but yeah" he said
"I can't believe you would hit your friend like that" you said
"He's not really my friend" he replied
"Whatever" you said
"Will you just come over?" he asked
"Only so we can talk about this and nothing else" you stated

You didn't really want to talk to Nikki but you wanted to resolve your issues with him so you don't have to worry about it anymore.