The Cursed Heart and The Hopeful Light: Ruby Rose x Male Human(RWBY)

Why is my Life Hell?!

Halcyon's POV

I stood on the cliff overlooking the ocean. A heavy rain fell on my shoulders and the rough waves crashed against the sheer cliff. The shell with my name on it was held tight in my fist as I paced back and forth on the cliff. A powerful scowl grew on my face and I ran towards the cliff, ready to throw the round into the sea. I fell to my knees as I swung my arm, the shell practically welded to my hand as though it was a part of me. I painfully screamed in anger, letting all of the oxygen free from my lungs.

"Gods dammit! Why?! Why can't I do anything right!" I roared to the sky.

Tears flowed from my eyes, I had lost the love of my life, and one of my best friends. I held my hand on the rock below me as though I could tear the cliff to shreds. Even through the crashing waves and pouring rain, I heard someone walk up behind me.

"What the hell are doing here old man?" I shakily called out.

"I'm here to help you. And get you to come back," yelled Qrow.

I clenched my teeth hard as I stood back up, blood on my hand from the rocks cutting it.

"I can't. I won't hurt them anymore!" I cried out.

Thunder crashed overhead, and I heard the sound of metal striking stone. I looked behind me to see Qrow had stabbed his sword into the ground.

"Kid, you're gonna be hurting people if you don't come back, we need you," pleaded Qrow.

"Everyone hates me now, I screamed at Ranger for telling Ruby what I had done, and I broke my promise to Ruby!" I shouted.

I looked down as the blood from my hand was washed away, leaving only the trails from the cuts. I fell back to my knees once again.

"I'm a failure," I mumbled.

"No... no you're not a failure kid!" Declared Qrow.

"How am I not...?" I called out again.

"Well, you're breathing, right? You're not six feet under and you've got blood running through you!" Shouted Qrow. "The way I see it, and damn sure the way Ruby would see it is you kept your promise!"

I stood up in a huff and stomped towards Qrow.

"I still put my gun to my head! I still stabbed myself in the wrist with that shard of metal! I wanted to fucking die because Beacon was all my fault, and I wasn't sure if Ruby was ok!" I shouted in his face.

Qrow stepped back as I breathed heavily. I was livid, livid with myself for everything that had happened since Beacon.

"You don't get it, do you?" Said Qrow. "You don't understand what you are a part of! What you have made and become!"

"Yes I do! I'm a monster! I have hurt hundreds of people all by just existing!" I shouted.

Qrow took hold of my shoulders, and shook me a little.

"No, listen to me! You're not a monster! You have done insurmountable good! All those people that you've left, you have made all their lives better! But if you don't come back you're going to hurt them worse than anything!" Pleaded Qrow.

I looked Qrow in the eye and could see how serious he was. I looked back on everything in my life. I saw the destruction, the chaos, the death.

"If you don't come back, I will fail Ozpin's last order to me. I don't know when I'm gonna see him again but that doesn't mean I'm gonna let him down, because that'll mean I let you down," explained Qrow.