With Love to cat from fin

CHAPTER 81

After dinner cathy and cole her husband prepared to leave, apparently she's married and now pregnant with twins, i couldn't believe how much has changed in 3 years almost 4 now. It was just college life with relationship struggles for me but for her it must've been hard taking lifetime decisions, marriage, children. and how about dave? what happened to him? i wanted to know also i wanted to tell her everything but i felt a bit awkward, throughout the dinner our conversation wouldn't go past the formal talks, i guess it's because i still couldn't believe she's right in front of me.

"Mr.Dunne i insist you stay for the night" samrat said formally, 

"yes, you should not travel much, i suggest you stay for the night" dany said looking at cathy, i was the only silent one, i want to tell her a lot of things but everything got stuck on the edge of my tongue, it's like my tongue got twisted, i put soo much effort on saying formal words, i was really a disaster, 

"you can stay in that room for tonight" samrat said showing pam's room, i nodded looking at my boyfriend, how he made all of this? i know for sure he's the one behind this meet.

Dany helped me clean up the table and prepared to leave along with jermy and brady "sweets, i and kaal will be back in the morning" she said, 

"dany wait" i called after her, 

"thankyou, thankyou for everything" i said hugging her, 

"come on sweets, i'm happy you both met again" she said hugging me back, "but you have a lot to explain. later" i said releasing her, 

"later it is" dany smiled, 

"thankyou guys, i mean it" i said hugging each one of them, 

"sure, have a blast" brady said ruffling my hair, 

"you won't forget us, will you?" jermy joked "rude" i hit his shoulder, he laughed and kissed my cheek, 

"we'll get going, merry Christmas again" kaal wished and i nodded happily.

After seeing them off i went to pam's room and made bed, i prepared towels and extra blankets incase if she needs any and went to sit with them, "let me get some more wine for us" samrat said leaving the table 

"how is cynthia doing?" cathy asked trying to converse, "yes, she's doing good" i said and cursed myself, doing good and that's it? what's with you finn? come on say something my inner voice shouted at me for lack of my communication skills, samrat came back with a bottle of wine, we drank talking about general things and i ended up silently staring at them as they continued to talk.

Cathy shifted uncomfortably in her seat, "why? are you not feeling good?" i asked standing and held out my hand, "no, i can't sit for a long time" she said taking my hand, cole immediately took her other hand and helped her stand up, "let's get you to bed" he said, we helped her into bed, i came out closing door behind my back.

Samrat was in the balcony talking in phone, i went to our room and prepared to get into bed, "how is my gift?" he asked standing in doorway, i stayed silent, should i say i love having her back or should i say that it's, the guilt of my mistakes is killing me, 

I thought i would say sorry then we will get back to being like before but i can't get out any words in the fear of getting her hurt again, i don't know what she has faced but i can see in her eyes, it's more than i can ever imagine, all because i couldn't take proper care of her, 

"bunny, are you not happy?" he asked sitting before me, "what happened? why are you soo silent? talk to me" he said standing on his knees, "i don't know sam" i sighed, "tell me" he said holding my hands, "it's nothing like before Sam, i have this feeling in me" i stopped trying to calm my shaking voice, he squeezed my hands gently, "4 total years has passed without any contact, i know many things has changed between us, i feel like i know nothing of her, i feel like i have become a stranger to her" i said biting my lip to control my tears,