Our Delayed Dreams (Dream Series #1)

Chapter 25

Chapter 25: glass pieces

tw // death

"Kuya," nakuha ni Serian ang atensyon ko. He showed me his phone screen and that's when I knew that my life would be permanently fucked up.

"Anong gagawin natin?" He was starting to worry.

Ako din, nagaalala na.

"Do you think she saw it already?"

He didn't answer.

"Serian," I called his name.

"I-I think so..."

Tumayo ako kaya bigla siyang napatingin sa'kin.

"Saan ka pupunta kuya?"

"Sakanya, I can't loose her again, Serian." I know I just can't. Hawak ko na siya, hindi ko na kakayanin kung mawawala pa ulit siya saakin.

"But you already lost her when you decided to leave..." his mouth spitted nonsense.

"Ano pinagsasabi mo? I lost her for a moment but I have her back now. I'm close to her again, Serian." I got so frustrated.

"Stop fooling yourself like you're really a fool. Kuya, I love you but please. Please stop fooling yourself. You know you still don't have a grip on her. Alam mo 'yan." His eyes talked to me too.

"Stop invalidating my feelings like you know what I've been-" I was cut off.

"Hindi ko naman iniinvalidate feelings mo, kuya ah? I know what you've been through! I've been there not only once but multiple times already! I gave up so many things kuya! You had it worst and I understand that. But just stop talking like you also know what I'm feeling."

"Fuck, can we just stop? Ayaw ko na ng problema, okay? Aalis ako." Hindi ko na siya hinintay magsalita pa. I can't lose Kila now.

Was I too rough with him? Fuck this. Bakit ba galit na galit ako? Wala naman dapat akong ikagalit.

But do I really have Kila close to me now? I gave her the closure she deserves not long ago, pero ngayon sinusubukan ulit ako ng pasensya ko.

I don't see any woman in my future other than Kila. It is always her.

Why do I have to suffer just because my parents need a connection for their damn business?

I don't fucking want to fool myself. That ice skater's family is such a pain.

Fioña? Is that her name? We both agreed we won't allow and agree to that engagement.

Besides, she told me she's independently happy. So anong meron at bakit bigla nalang niyang inaannounce na engaged siya saakin??

How the hell am I supposed to chase Kila now?

I was so angry, I was fuming mad about that article.

I drove as fast as I can only to find myself in front of Fioña's house to demand an explanation.

I can't face Kila without me knowing the reason behind why she suddenly did that. I can't lie anymore, I know I just can't lie.